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Okay so my senior year is coming up... which sounds pretty exciting if you think about it just in the sense that this is my last year of high school. However if you have a mind like mine, thats when you start to get into some trouble. I start thinking and then i can't stop. I am truly a little afraid for what this year has in store for me. No longer am i just saying yeah i want to go to that school, i actually have to apply and then wait for either a "yes we want you" or a "no why the hell did you think you could get into this school." Either answer makes my stomach do turns. Then we come to just dealing with this year. Everyone tells me that this is going to be the best year and that its such a breeze... but im not exactly getting that feeling. I am taking a full course with AP and honors classes, i really think that i am subconciously trying to kill myself before i get the chance to be rejected by schools. I am going to be president of a club i just joined last year and i have no freaking idea what to do. And i just feel a lot of pressure starting to grow. But i am sure after the year actually starts and i get into the swing of things i will adjust to what its going to be like, like i always do. And im not even going to mention boys other than this, they claim girls play games? Um maybe they should take a look at what they do, because to me thats what it looks like. A bunch of games.