you need a friend, i'll be around, don't let this end before I see you again...
Gavin's the man.
so i've decided either way.. i'm going to end up losing. i'm right... no matter what you try and tell me... i know you too well and i know that i'm right on this one despite what you try and tell me that that isn't really the way it is, that i'm really not "runner up". it doesn't matter though.. i kind of miss being the friend that was there to talk to about the other girl... i wasn't getting hurt when it was like that... not that i'm really getting hurt now but i sometimes feel like i'm setting myself up to get hurt. maybe that's what i am doing... and when i realize that i dont even do anything about it... because somedays it all feels so right actually, the majority of the time, whenever i'm with you, it feels right. and i can't decide... either i'm completely wrong and messing up really bad or you are actually the one that's wrong... maybe we both are. i've waited too long for this to work itself out and it isn't. i'm going to stop... and i'm scared, i'm scared that i'm going to try really really hard to stop and it isn't going to work... or i'm scared that i'll stop and things will change. ok maybe i'm just being a pessimist now... i don't want to be hurt.
so i've decided either way.. i'm going to end up losing. i'm right... no matter what you try and tell me... i know you too well and i know that i'm right on this one despite what you try and tell me that that isn't really the way it is, that i'm really not "runner up". it doesn't matter though.. i kind of miss being the friend that was there to talk to about the other girl... i wasn't getting hurt when it was like that... not that i'm really getting hurt now but i sometimes feel like i'm setting myself up to get hurt. maybe that's what i am doing... and when i realize that i dont even do anything about it... because somedays it all feels so right actually, the majority of the time, whenever i'm with you, it feels right. and i can't decide... either i'm completely wrong and messing up really bad or you are actually the one that's wrong... maybe we both are. i've waited too long for this to work itself out and it isn't. i'm going to stop... and i'm scared, i'm scared that i'm going to try really really hard to stop and it isn't going to work... or i'm scared that i'll stop and things will change. ok maybe i'm just being a pessimist now... i don't want to be hurt.