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Whenever I think up something smart and interesting to type up in here I get writers block on the spot. It's so annoying, I get all these amazing ideas and it all turns to shit when I click 'Post'.
Tonight was good. I always get so happy when I go to Foley functions, but when I get home I'm so sad. I fucking belong at Foley. But I guess Royal Oak will just have to do for now. I really just wish everything could just go smoothly, but, like I've been told before "you can't always get what you want". No fucking shit. Really? Why bother even saying that? Period. I certainly didn't get everything I wanted in life, because if that was the case: my grandpa would still be here, my sister would be healthy, my family would be rich, I'd have a car and my license, and I'd attend Foley. So there is definitely no point in telling me I can't always get what I want, because that's been made clear several times in different situations. Not getting what you want is tough, but losing everything you've ever wanted is even tougher. I just never realized how tough I am, or how strong I am. I'm a smart little cookie, and noone can get to me. I didn't know how independant I was until now. Now that I'm out in the world. I feel so wild and free. But I need sleep.....RIGHT NOW. Ugh, I love Michael Rossman, who could ask for a better best friend?
Tonight was good. I always get so happy when I go to Foley functions, but when I get home I'm so sad. I fucking belong at Foley. But I guess Royal Oak will just have to do for now. I really just wish everything could just go smoothly, but, like I've been told before "you can't always get what you want". No fucking shit. Really? Why bother even saying that? Period. I certainly didn't get everything I wanted in life, because if that was the case: my grandpa would still be here, my sister would be healthy, my family would be rich, I'd have a car and my license, and I'd attend Foley. So there is definitely no point in telling me I can't always get what I want, because that's been made clear several times in different situations. Not getting what you want is tough, but losing everything you've ever wanted is even tougher. I just never realized how tough I am, or how strong I am. I'm a smart little cookie, and noone can get to me. I didn't know how independant I was until now. Now that I'm out in the world. I feel so wild and free. But I need sleep.....RIGHT NOW. Ugh, I love Michael Rossman, who could ask for a better best friend?