Lost fic: luau 2008 for Queen slybrunette
Title: Forgiven, Not Forgotten
Featuring: Kate, Sawyer, Jack (Lost)
Rating: PG (Warning - not a mention of slash, an almost complete unknown for yours truly!)
Word Count: 366 words
Disclaimer: Not mine, just something I'm playing with for no money. No disrespect intended.
Author's Notes: Unbeta'd, all mistakes are my own. Written for Queen slybrunette for the Lost luau at lostsquee. She was after something inspired by a song, and this morose little ficlet came out of nowhere up after a depressing night and a Monday morning at work. Apologies for the hopelessness!
A bleeding heart torn apart
Left on an icy grave
In the room where they once lay
Face to face
Nothing could get in their way
But now the memories of the man are haunting her days
And the craving never fades
She's still dreaming of a man
Long forgiven, but not forgotten
'Forgiven, Not Forgotten' The Corrs
She didn't think she could forgive Sawyer at first.
Jumping out of the helicopter when they were so close to being saved and giving her something to do that he knew she wouldn't be able to refuse seemed too much, at first.
But that was all forgotten when the ship blew up and the island disappeared before their eyes.
It hadn't been easy, adjusting to the idea that Locke had actually moved the island, but what other possible explanation was there? And they didn't even know if Sawyer had made it back there, although she didn't doubt his swimming abilities. What if he hadn't? What if he'd drowned out there somewhere, just as they had almost done?
And so she'd forgiven him for leaving her, because she couldn't take the guilt. She still had Jack, didn't she? That was the way it panned out, at first; just what she'd always wanted, wasn't it? Why else had she kept playing Sawyer like that and running back to Jack at every opportunity?
Why she couldn't just forget Sawyer now, she really didn't know. She had Aaron to think about too, and Jack was with her, so why in hell did she keep his memory burning inside her?
She did everything she could think of to erase it, but barely a day went by when she didn't catch herself thinking about something Sawyer had said or done, or just about the way the sunlight glinted on his hair, or some other foolish thing.
Jack didn't seem to notice at first, although he was caught up in work and whatever it was he was trying to fix, so it wasn't like he had the opportunity to notice.
Until the day she went off to complete the task Sawyer had set her.
That was it, obviously. Jack finally clicked that Sawyer would never be forgotten, and that he was second-best. She hadn't even realised that herself until right that moment.
So she didn't stop Jack when he walked out either; just as she hadn't stopped Sawyer from jumping out of the helicopter.
She forgave him a lot more quickly though, even if she didn't forget him any sooner than she had Sawyer.
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Featuring: Kate, Sawyer, Jack (Lost)
Rating: PG (Warning - not a mention of slash, an almost complete unknown for yours truly!)
Word Count: 366 words
Disclaimer: Not mine, just something I'm playing with for no money. No disrespect intended.
Author's Notes: Unbeta'd, all mistakes are my own. Written for Queen slybrunette for the Lost luau at lostsquee. She was after something inspired by a song, and this morose little ficlet came out of nowhere up after a depressing night and a Monday morning at work. Apologies for the hopelessness!
A bleeding heart torn apart
Left on an icy grave
In the room where they once lay
Face to face
Nothing could get in their way
But now the memories of the man are haunting her days
And the craving never fades
She's still dreaming of a man
Long forgiven, but not forgotten
'Forgiven, Not Forgotten' The Corrs
She didn't think she could forgive Sawyer at first.
Jumping out of the helicopter when they were so close to being saved and giving her something to do that he knew she wouldn't be able to refuse seemed too much, at first.
But that was all forgotten when the ship blew up and the island disappeared before their eyes.
It hadn't been easy, adjusting to the idea that Locke had actually moved the island, but what other possible explanation was there? And they didn't even know if Sawyer had made it back there, although she didn't doubt his swimming abilities. What if he hadn't? What if he'd drowned out there somewhere, just as they had almost done?
And so she'd forgiven him for leaving her, because she couldn't take the guilt. She still had Jack, didn't she? That was the way it panned out, at first; just what she'd always wanted, wasn't it? Why else had she kept playing Sawyer like that and running back to Jack at every opportunity?
Why she couldn't just forget Sawyer now, she really didn't know. She had Aaron to think about too, and Jack was with her, so why in hell did she keep his memory burning inside her?
She did everything she could think of to erase it, but barely a day went by when she didn't catch herself thinking about something Sawyer had said or done, or just about the way the sunlight glinted on his hair, or some other foolish thing.
Jack didn't seem to notice at first, although he was caught up in work and whatever it was he was trying to fix, so it wasn't like he had the opportunity to notice.
Until the day she went off to complete the task Sawyer had set her.
That was it, obviously. Jack finally clicked that Sawyer would never be forgotten, and that he was second-best. She hadn't even realised that herself until right that moment.
So she didn't stop Jack when he walked out either; just as she hadn't stopped Sawyer from jumping out of the helicopter.
She forgave him a lot more quickly though, even if she didn't forget him any sooner than she had Sawyer.
~//~//~
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