Stress. JenJen. Physical abuse. **EDIT**
My mother may be covering MTAC stuff and whatnot, and she helps me out moneywise since the doctors were against me going to school or getting a job, but I'm getting better. She thinks that since she's paying for this and that, that I automatically owe her respect. It doesn't work that way. She's been screaming at me for three days now. About my medicine. Calling me a liar, saying I've done this and that which I haven't. Like taking some of her meds, or not taking my medicine. And she stormed in my room, screaming at me to count the pills in my antibiotic which only knocks out some symptoms. It doesn't cure pneumonia or flu. HELLO. VIRUS YOU FUCKING MORON. But I had been accidently taking this anti-fungal medicine I used to take since a doctor who fucked me royally thought molds and fungi in TN were affecting my system. And the bottles Ciproflaxin and Veraflaxin look the same. I saw flaxin, the pills look the same and all. So yeah. Was an accident. So then I tossed the wrong bottle across the room, and have been taking Cipro. And then later, she comes to count pills a day or so later or something. And says I still wasn't taking them and I was. And she just has been tirading. And she knows with my Addison's Disease, my adrenal glands and my stomach are the worst places to hurt me. And I had been in pain. She punched me in the stomach, and then reached around, and punched my lower back hard. But I smashed her wrist in defense with a lotion bottle, and then chucked it at her head to get her off me. And she leaves the room laughing. And even this morning she came in here screaming at me. Saying that I didn't say the room cost for the hotel per night would be 200 something dollars a night since I probably couldn't get it at the con rate, and yelling and screaming and being the fucking cunt she is. I'm greatful for things she does, and money she shares and all that. But that doesn't give her license to call me a liar. And beat me up. And notice, she hit me where I hurt the worst. And she knew that I was struggling with my Addison's too. I have huge bruises and they hurt bad.
So, I still have the flu and pneumonia. And it sucks bigtime. I decided to go ahead and call and get the room for MTAC. And I got a room per the usual for three nights. Thursday, Friday, Saturday, checkout Sunday. But it's past due for the con rate. So that sucks. It's like 201 bucks a night plus tax but MTAC is my birthday con so. ::Shrugs:: Mom is going to cover it. It sucks not having a job, it's nearly impossible to get one here. Because so much needs to be done. I've got a machine I can work with now, not very good but it'll work. And I need to whip up my new Rufus costume since the other Advent Children one does not fit since it's too big. I need to make sure I get my bandages, and get stuff to put the stigma on, the veil, make a new Jenova box. And I have a wheelchair. Now it's great for cosplay pictures, and I'll be in it sometimes and sometimes not. You know there are stairs and thin hallways and crowds it gets in the way. But you know you can walk around as Rufus with the veil around your shoulders and that god damn box and people know who you are. I didn't see one Rufus ShinRa at Katsucon. And I love Rufus. But yeah. And I need to make JenJen's EMR for Reno. I need to pre-reg, and so does she and need to talk to her about it.
Her birthday is coming up soon and I'm going to go up there to see her for it. I have a doc appt on the 25th, my reg doc appt and her bday is the 20th. But I'll be able to stay for a little while.
Now I've been frustrating and talking with Jen. In the past, I do costume changes. And even now I do. I hate just using one costume. You know Saturday is the BIG day. But then there's Friday. And I still have not decided since I love Rufus so much, if I'll make costumes from videogame girls or what. Like, there's talk of me being Mai, and Jen doing Chun Li. But like I said. Rufus is the man, and I love him so much. And I'm the con person, like many of my friends.. that love to just walk around, hit the dealer's room. A few events and panels. And meet people. Show off. And want lots of pics since it's been forever since I've cosplayed Shachou, due to illness or unable to get things together or had other commitments in the cosplay world. But MTAC was gonna be my videogame release. Now, I keep thinking I might do Iori. People show up as usual on cons on Thursday, and people randomly cosplay and wander about that night too.
One of my friends thought it was stupid JenJen and I are staying alone, saying that cons are about meeting people, blah blah. Uh. It's my fucking birthday convention. Pending on if she's got a job by end of April or whatever. Or her crazy go nuts mother, she'll probably be staying and visiting for awhile and then we'll be going to the con. We want to be alone in our room. And it's getting covered, so that's great. I'm sure I'll see friends there and I become a social bumblebee at cons and meet people and come home with a thousand numbers but yeah. My Shiori hair, I need to grow it out for my loverly angelness. But yeah. If I do Rufus, I want my real hair. I never use wigs for short haired characters. I liked having short boy. Yanno, my Ruka hair. Since it's the classic anime boy cut, and I can go from person to person without a wig and just hair coloring.
But yeah. So, I want opinions. I do costume changes even on Saturdays but it's been so long since ShinRa, I want to kinda do him the whole time. And Jen wants to do Reno the whole time, I think.
So what do you guys think. Should I stay as Rufus all four days, really. Since I'll wander around Thursday night probably. Or should I do a different costume Thursday night, and then something Friday. I kinda need to buckle down. If I'm going to do multiple costumes, I don't want Jen to feel left out if I'm in a different genre or video game or yaoi costume yanno. I'd want her to cosplay someone matching me, and I imagine she'd want to. Why we talked about Chun Li and Mai Shiranui. But gimme some opinions!
And omg, our room is awesome too. We have a private balcony. MTAC Infinity is being held at the biggest hotel yet, and it's gorgeous. I've seen it before, and it just will suck being in Nashville traffic, but I go to Nashville so much it doesn't bother me.
Stay as Rufus? Do costume changes? What? If I do as I said, do costume changes I have to figure out what gonna be done, and talk to JenJen.
I can't wait to see her. I get to see her like monthly probably unlike Heather. So it's long distance but only six hours or so. Not bad. And I've driven to Otakon and Katsu and other cons so no problem. Mom is bitching and I knew she would say it. YOUR CAR WON'T MAKE IT. AND WE DON'T HAVE THE MONEY RIGHT NOW TO GET IT FIYAAAXED. Bullshit. She's pretty much figured it out Jen and I are a couple. So yeah.
Ugh, gotta shake this sickness. It's killing me.
Yanno, what sucks about cosplay stuff. Sometimes it's not even the costume. IT'S THE ACCESSORIES AND WIGS THAT KILL YOU. Lol.
I love my JenJen. <33333333333333333333333333333333333
woohoo, private balcony. That'll be sexy. And I think like a cosplayer so I think I'll get someone to get a picture of Rufus holding Reno out on the balcony. yaoi is good. Rufus x Reno is love.
**EDIT**EDIT**
So. Mom and I were fighting this morning. And yelling and screaming. I mean we'd been getting along and then all this shit started. She apologized to me though, for hurting me and calling me a liar and all the things she's done and been screaming at me about for the past couple days. Said she's stressed out and she shouldn't be taking her stress out on me. And as far as the YOUR CAR ISN'T FIXED SO YOU CAN'T DRIVE TO WEST VIRGINIA.. her spring break starts the 21st. A day after my baby's birthday. But, she said we don't have the money right now to get my car fixed. And that she would take me up there on the 21st, and then pick me up after a few days, whenever the break is up and whatnot. And MTAC my car will be fixed. And mom said she can stay as long as she wants, and I'll be able to go get her and bring her here. And she can stay however long she wants. And that depends on her neurotic mother and if she has a job or something then. but yeah.
So, I still have the flu and pneumonia. And it sucks bigtime. I decided to go ahead and call and get the room for MTAC. And I got a room per the usual for three nights. Thursday, Friday, Saturday, checkout Sunday. But it's past due for the con rate. So that sucks. It's like 201 bucks a night plus tax but MTAC is my birthday con so. ::Shrugs:: Mom is going to cover it. It sucks not having a job, it's nearly impossible to get one here. Because so much needs to be done. I've got a machine I can work with now, not very good but it'll work. And I need to whip up my new Rufus costume since the other Advent Children one does not fit since it's too big. I need to make sure I get my bandages, and get stuff to put the stigma on, the veil, make a new Jenova box. And I have a wheelchair. Now it's great for cosplay pictures, and I'll be in it sometimes and sometimes not. You know there are stairs and thin hallways and crowds it gets in the way. But you know you can walk around as Rufus with the veil around your shoulders and that god damn box and people know who you are. I didn't see one Rufus ShinRa at Katsucon. And I love Rufus. But yeah. And I need to make JenJen's EMR for Reno. I need to pre-reg, and so does she and need to talk to her about it.
Her birthday is coming up soon and I'm going to go up there to see her for it. I have a doc appt on the 25th, my reg doc appt and her bday is the 20th. But I'll be able to stay for a little while.
Now I've been frustrating and talking with Jen. In the past, I do costume changes. And even now I do. I hate just using one costume. You know Saturday is the BIG day. But then there's Friday. And I still have not decided since I love Rufus so much, if I'll make costumes from videogame girls or what. Like, there's talk of me being Mai, and Jen doing Chun Li. But like I said. Rufus is the man, and I love him so much. And I'm the con person, like many of my friends.. that love to just walk around, hit the dealer's room. A few events and panels. And meet people. Show off. And want lots of pics since it's been forever since I've cosplayed Shachou, due to illness or unable to get things together or had other commitments in the cosplay world. But MTAC was gonna be my videogame release. Now, I keep thinking I might do Iori. People show up as usual on cons on Thursday, and people randomly cosplay and wander about that night too.
One of my friends thought it was stupid JenJen and I are staying alone, saying that cons are about meeting people, blah blah. Uh. It's my fucking birthday convention. Pending on if she's got a job by end of April or whatever. Or her crazy go nuts mother, she'll probably be staying and visiting for awhile and then we'll be going to the con. We want to be alone in our room. And it's getting covered, so that's great. I'm sure I'll see friends there and I become a social bumblebee at cons and meet people and come home with a thousand numbers but yeah. My Shiori hair, I need to grow it out for my loverly angelness. But yeah. If I do Rufus, I want my real hair. I never use wigs for short haired characters. I liked having short boy. Yanno, my Ruka hair. Since it's the classic anime boy cut, and I can go from person to person without a wig and just hair coloring.
But yeah. So, I want opinions. I do costume changes even on Saturdays but it's been so long since ShinRa, I want to kinda do him the whole time. And Jen wants to do Reno the whole time, I think.
So what do you guys think. Should I stay as Rufus all four days, really. Since I'll wander around Thursday night probably. Or should I do a different costume Thursday night, and then something Friday. I kinda need to buckle down. If I'm going to do multiple costumes, I don't want Jen to feel left out if I'm in a different genre or video game or yaoi costume yanno. I'd want her to cosplay someone matching me, and I imagine she'd want to. Why we talked about Chun Li and Mai Shiranui. But gimme some opinions!
And omg, our room is awesome too. We have a private balcony. MTAC Infinity is being held at the biggest hotel yet, and it's gorgeous. I've seen it before, and it just will suck being in Nashville traffic, but I go to Nashville so much it doesn't bother me.
Stay as Rufus? Do costume changes? What? If I do as I said, do costume changes I have to figure out what gonna be done, and talk to JenJen.
I can't wait to see her. I get to see her like monthly probably unlike Heather. So it's long distance but only six hours or so. Not bad. And I've driven to Otakon and Katsu and other cons so no problem. Mom is bitching and I knew she would say it. YOUR CAR WON'T MAKE IT. AND WE DON'T HAVE THE MONEY RIGHT NOW TO GET IT FIYAAAXED. Bullshit. She's pretty much figured it out Jen and I are a couple. So yeah.
Ugh, gotta shake this sickness. It's killing me.
Yanno, what sucks about cosplay stuff. Sometimes it's not even the costume. IT'S THE ACCESSORIES AND WIGS THAT KILL YOU. Lol.
I love my JenJen. <33333333333333333333333333333333333
woohoo, private balcony. That'll be sexy. And I think like a cosplayer so I think I'll get someone to get a picture of Rufus holding Reno out on the balcony. yaoi is good. Rufus x Reno is love.
**EDIT**EDIT**
So. Mom and I were fighting this morning. And yelling and screaming. I mean we'd been getting along and then all this shit started. She apologized to me though, for hurting me and calling me a liar and all the things she's done and been screaming at me about for the past couple days. Said she's stressed out and she shouldn't be taking her stress out on me. And as far as the YOUR CAR ISN'T FIXED SO YOU CAN'T DRIVE TO WEST VIRGINIA.. her spring break starts the 21st. A day after my baby's birthday. But, she said we don't have the money right now to get my car fixed. And that she would take me up there on the 21st, and then pick me up after a few days, whenever the break is up and whatnot. And MTAC my car will be fixed. And mom said she can stay as long as she wants, and I'll be able to go get her and bring her here. And she can stay however long she wants. And that depends on her neurotic mother and if she has a job or something then. but yeah.