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Matt is loving, caring, sweet, full of affection and puts up with a lot of my shit. He's cute n' clever and even maybe a bit intelligent.
But at the same time I want to eat his face sometimes. He doesn't have any of his shit together for school - he owes them 3,000 - he doesn't have his books, he hasn't signed his financial aid letter, he hasn't done anything. Absolutely nothing. He refuses to call his father, yet last night I was informed he wishes to go home for five days at the end of the month. I got really pissed for a couple of reasons which, now, I realize weren't entirely reasonable, just emotional. I didn't think laziness would piss me off so much - I'm lazy too, but I get my shit done. I just am sick of doing this whole 'do it, now, please' bullshit since I just think it's useless and stupid and stresses me out about things he should be doing. I mean seriously, he has two or three chores - ferret care, dishes, trash. That's fucking it. I do everything else and only occasionally ask him to do something for me. It drives me nuts, absolutely nuts. His attention span, his laziness, his obliviousness. He's somewhere else 90% of the time.
I'm stupid for ever believing a relationship could be 100% tolerable.
But at the same time I want to eat his face sometimes. He doesn't have any of his shit together for school - he owes them 3,000 - he doesn't have his books, he hasn't signed his financial aid letter, he hasn't done anything. Absolutely nothing. He refuses to call his father, yet last night I was informed he wishes to go home for five days at the end of the month. I got really pissed for a couple of reasons which, now, I realize weren't entirely reasonable, just emotional. I didn't think laziness would piss me off so much - I'm lazy too, but I get my shit done. I just am sick of doing this whole 'do it, now, please' bullshit since I just think it's useless and stupid and stresses me out about things he should be doing. I mean seriously, he has two or three chores - ferret care, dishes, trash. That's fucking it. I do everything else and only occasionally ask him to do something for me. It drives me nuts, absolutely nuts. His attention span, his laziness, his obliviousness. He's somewhere else 90% of the time.
I'm stupid for ever believing a relationship could be 100% tolerable.