decisions are hard to make sometimes
The other night was interesting. Saying some things out loud really helped me become confident that I'm making the right decision about some things. I've been content with being 2nd class for years. I guess it's one of those situations where you leave the door open without going through it. I just find it astonishing that people expect you to be friends to them when they've never been a friend to you. That they think it's okay to let you go through things alone without showing the slightest interest in whether you need someone to talk to. That they also think its okay to badmouth your family members right in front of you and think you should be in perfect agreement. That they can insult you by repeatedly saying that jobs like yours aren't REAL jobs. That they don't share what's supposed to be good news with you and just shows you how much they don't trust you. Your recommendations mean shit but someone who is essentially a stranger says the same thing and it's all rainbows and butterflies. And then after all that, they claim that you're one of their best friends. It's all very high school and like was said the other night, I'm done.