Gainesville and sisterhood retreat

[hal4him]

Well, this weekend was absolutely amazing. I had a blast! hehe... anyway, on friday after classes, I left to head to g-ville w/ some sorority sisters. One of the girl's boyfriend had a house in gainesville w/ some friends, and we went to hang out before the sisterhood retreat in daytona. Some of the girls had tickets to go to a sister hazel

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[morel_mushroom]

Okay... first of all you are the bestest big sister in the whole freaking world! Second of all... who is this guy? What is his name and where can I find him. Cuz I am gonna take fingernail clippers to him and then throw him into a pool of lemon juice. How dare he flirt with MY big sister... you deserve better. He isn't good enough for you. He may be sweet, but he isn't good enough. Nope... Ben is perfect though. Just thought I should tell you. Oh... and we are getting married. No. I'm serious. We are getting married. Promise ring and everything. Did you know that the legal marrying age in Florida without consent is 17? Nifty huh? Well... that is one way to get out of this family. God, Haley. I hate being here. They make my life miserable and i can't stand feeling as though I am drowning in imperfection. I'm just not good at being disliked. *sigh* Anywho... yeah. I had a day last week where EVERYTHING was making me think of Baba. Dad and Mom and Ann don't think I care. But I do. And I am grieving. I just don't show it. Is that such an awful thing?! To grieve inwardly? I didn't think so. But they seem to think that I am and unfeeling, coldhearted witch. That isn't fair. I honor him EVERY DAY by wearing his ring. And I feel absolutely vulnerable and incomplete without it. It is my bond to him and it is the most important material object that I own. At least to me it is. I saw a married older couple and my eyes started to tear up... I get where you are coming from. And I feel your pain. Haley, I know that sometimes it may seem as though I am apathetic or that I don't care or that I just am a lazy, selfish, immature child... and I am at times, but at heart I'm not. But no one who knows me on the homefront can possibly comprehend the difference from that girl and the girl that I am at school, where I can be myself. I am not a BAD person. I just... don't want to give to our family because I don't think they deserve it. But I love you. And I give for you. The only reason I manage to stay somewhat sane is that you visit and that gives me some relief for a while. I'm glad you are out of here. Mrs. Haley asked me today if I could possibly move in with you up in Tally. I doubt it... I am really glad that you enjoyed your trip! It sounded like a lot of fun. It sounds really rewarding to be part of a sisterhood. I am thinking that I am gonna end up going to FSU. Which is pretty dang cool cuz I think Ben may be going there too for their acting program. Hmmm... how hard would it be to be married in college? Not TOO hard. I mean it would be a distraction at first and it would be REALLY tough, but... Ann and Baba did it. I love Ben. I really really do. He loves me too. And he would make a perfect husband. He would love me and we would be soooo sweet together. Really. I doubt you approve... get back to me... I love you, Haley. I really really do. And I miss you a lot. Come home soon. We need you here. Maybe it will stabilize us... momentarily.

The best sister in the world

[hal4him]

Hey sweetie... i love that you finally found my lj. I'll email you back about most of the other stuff in a minute, but i just wanted to let you know that everyone at home only knows i went to daytona, so don't mention anything about g-ville, not that you would anyway, but gainesville was a secret plan. cya later... i loooove you!!

FINE!!!!

[hal4him]

ugh.... fine, if you won't talk to me til i post, i'm gonna have to come up w/ something to say! K, i'm just gonna go through everything you said in your incredibley long post, and respond. First, about the guy, he was perfectly nice, and not all that flirty... i just really started to like him, so that wasn't his fault. umm... about the marriage thing... i understand why you want to marry ben, but #1 you really prob. shouldn't get married before you graduate high school as much as i know you want to get out of the house... that just looks silly. #2, in no way, shape, or form are you gonna elope w/o me, cuz i hate to break it to you, but i WILL be your maid-of-honor, so don't get any smarty-pant ideas into your head. The summer after high school graduation is soon enough. #3, you are right, i don't think its the smartest thing in the world, but we'll talk about it sometime... i just wanna make sure you know what you are doing... you're a smart cookie, so i don't want anything like you waiting to go to college or something. And the Baba thing. I know you are such a private person, so i know your grief is something you keep inside, but it wouldn't hurt to talk to some of them about it. I'm not saying all the time, or always saying anything that you saw that day that reminded you of him, but everynow and then, letting them know how hard it is on you isn't horrible.. they are dealing w/ it too. I know how hard this is on you... Baba was so important to both of our everyday lives... i love you, and if you ever just want to sit and reminisce about him, just call.. you know my number. Alright, now that i've left a reply that rivals my post, i'm gonna sign off so that you'll talk to me again! I love you sooooo much!!!