many a hand has scaled the grand ol face of the plateau
ok. i'm sick of this bullshit. this is one honest entry. you lost it ok? we're not the same. do you even listen to music anymore?! maybe. ok i don't know. i've just been in a really shitty mood lately. partly because i let Justin read my journals yea. the one with his name written 4 times on each page...bad move hilary, real bad move. and now here i am in some dying spring thinking jesus christ, what happened?! what happened to EVERYTHING?! i'm freaking out, partially because i've been painfully sober. yea, painfully. and i've been listening to the meat puppets, which doesn't make things much better. well yes it does. well fuck i don't know. i just keep hanging onto things and people hoping that someday they'll see what the hell they're doing and change and maybe someday we'll really have something to talk about. fuck man. cos you know, deep down, i really do care, and i really badly miss old times. but i just can't do it right now. i mean, its too weird. waaaaay too weird. FUCK FUCK FUCK! i should just shut my mouth right now.