bad thoughts
I am in so much pain today. I know that is a fairly common occurrence but i am also mentally stretched thin. work, home, friends, and health, everything is stretched thinner than it has been in a long time. Emotionally, it is hard to describe. I feel so detached from myself that I can sort of just see that its mostly my depression getting the better of me and yet not really being able to feel anything. And then there is a part of me that just wants to cry, or scream for help. I know that's not good, but I guess its where I am right now. I want to reach out to friends, but at the same time I don't want to burden them with my bull shit. Sometimes I fantasize about a customer backing a truck over me on accident.