Bliss
I may be in trouble.
Recently I have developed a small medical issue. One that is either nothing and just a product of me getting a bit older and making a few poor health choices, or it is cancer. I have next to no medical insurance. If it is nothing all I will be able to do/ have to do is a slight change in diet which I have already done. If it is cancer then basically I'm done. Even if my family pulled together over something like that there wouldn't be money for treatment.
Is it bad that I don't want to know? I'm not in any real discomfort it is so bad to want to go a bit longer without knowing? My birthday is coming up, and then all my favorite holidays. If it gets worse I'll go in but right now I want to just believe in the best case scenario and enjoy my birthday. I know that isn't what you are supposed to do... but early detection only helps if you can afford treatment. I just don't want to know yet.
Recently I have developed a small medical issue. One that is either nothing and just a product of me getting a bit older and making a few poor health choices, or it is cancer. I have next to no medical insurance. If it is nothing all I will be able to do/ have to do is a slight change in diet which I have already done. If it is cancer then basically I'm done. Even if my family pulled together over something like that there wouldn't be money for treatment.
Is it bad that I don't want to know? I'm not in any real discomfort it is so bad to want to go a bit longer without knowing? My birthday is coming up, and then all my favorite holidays. If it gets worse I'll go in but right now I want to just believe in the best case scenario and enjoy my birthday. I know that isn't what you are supposed to do... but early detection only helps if you can afford treatment. I just don't want to know yet.