Some Musings on Genderqueer
So, a fact that a few of you know and most of don't is that at one point earlier in the year I was questioning as genderqueer. This is because while I love my feminine side, I feel that there are quite a few aspects of myself that are masculine, and I love those too. In fact, I sometimes identify more as a guy, though not to the extent that I would consider myself transgender. I am more of a good mix, thus identify more with genderqueer.
However, for political reasons I have come to the conclusion that I cannot attach that label to myself. I already identify too strongly as a feminist, and while I recognize that feminists come in all varieties of gender and non-gender, I feel that it would be an insult to my closeness to the movement to throw away the word "woman" in connection to myself.
So, I am at a weird middle-ground. While I feel that actions and qualities should stop being attached to sexes/genders, I don't quite feel like the word "woman" is completely accurate for me. And yet, I feel the need to identify as "woman". And as feminine as I can be/ as I present myself, I long for people to recognize and appreciate my more masculine attributes (ex: my use of rough-housing as affection). I don't really know how to accurately express what I wish you all saw in me. But, I'm giving you some rough thoughts. So, what do you think?
However, for political reasons I have come to the conclusion that I cannot attach that label to myself. I already identify too strongly as a feminist, and while I recognize that feminists come in all varieties of gender and non-gender, I feel that it would be an insult to my closeness to the movement to throw away the word "woman" in connection to myself.
So, I am at a weird middle-ground. While I feel that actions and qualities should stop being attached to sexes/genders, I don't quite feel like the word "woman" is completely accurate for me. And yet, I feel the need to identify as "woman". And as feminine as I can be/ as I present myself, I long for people to recognize and appreciate my more masculine attributes (ex: my use of rough-housing as affection). I don't really know how to accurately express what I wish you all saw in me. But, I'm giving you some rough thoughts. So, what do you think?