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wow, It has been forever. I have had the most troubles updating lately.
Instead of feeling sorry for myself and thinking that there is some wonder drug to make it all better, I thought that I would first evaluate my life. Is there something "I" could do to make it better? Yes there is. I wrote Neil a love letter everyday this past couple of days, planned activities for me and Jazz, planned time alone for me. It is working wonderfully. Neil loved the letters and it showed! I know that we will never have the beginning butterflies that most new couples have, we have meaningful butterflies, ones with deep feelings and hope for the future. They are not the same as new ones, they are better! That is all that I can say for now, I am just on cloud nine. Why could I not figure this out long ago? You have to start with you!
Instead of feeling sorry for myself and thinking that there is some wonder drug to make it all better, I thought that I would first evaluate my life. Is there something "I" could do to make it better? Yes there is. I wrote Neil a love letter everyday this past couple of days, planned activities for me and Jazz, planned time alone for me. It is working wonderfully. Neil loved the letters and it showed! I know that we will never have the beginning butterflies that most new couples have, we have meaningful butterflies, ones with deep feelings and hope for the future. They are not the same as new ones, they are better! That is all that I can say for now, I am just on cloud nine. Why could I not figure this out long ago? You have to start with you!