growing up...
it's amazing how this works. just when you think you've got life figured out, it throws a curveball, sometimes at you, sometimes right in your face. and either you do absolutely nothing and keep trying to do the same thing, or you learn something and grow up. well, i guess i'm learning and growing up and pretty fast.
this summer was interesting for me. i worked a ton. and the people i worked with were somewhat awesome. not all of them, but most of them. and then there was spencer. i learned a lot about my relationship with him. we both admitted some stuff each other. i love him, i really do. but not enough to try and break up his relationship (because i believe he really loves her) and not enough to try and start something with him. i know that i can call him and talk to him about anything, including other guys, and know that he will be supportive and be there for me. but as long as we're in each other's lives, i will love him.
other guys confuse me. i'm never sure whether they want to be friends or something more. i wish that they would just talk to me and give me a hint. i really don't know what i'm doing with them. i love having the awesome guy friends i have, but sometimes that's not enough.
my girls though are awesome. they have been there for me through it all and have been a shoulder to cry on and awesome hugs. i'm so blessed to have them in my life.
i'm trying to remember to stress less. take projects one step at a time. look at each day closer, and the big picture a little less. because the big picture and the future is super stressful. in fact, it often terrifies me. i haven't had any panic attacks since the beginning of summer which is good, but i just gotta remember to keep breathing. and to laugh. and smile.
remind me sometimes okay?
this summer was interesting for me. i worked a ton. and the people i worked with were somewhat awesome. not all of them, but most of them. and then there was spencer. i learned a lot about my relationship with him. we both admitted some stuff each other. i love him, i really do. but not enough to try and break up his relationship (because i believe he really loves her) and not enough to try and start something with him. i know that i can call him and talk to him about anything, including other guys, and know that he will be supportive and be there for me. but as long as we're in each other's lives, i will love him.
other guys confuse me. i'm never sure whether they want to be friends or something more. i wish that they would just talk to me and give me a hint. i really don't know what i'm doing with them. i love having the awesome guy friends i have, but sometimes that's not enough.
my girls though are awesome. they have been there for me through it all and have been a shoulder to cry on and awesome hugs. i'm so blessed to have them in my life.
i'm trying to remember to stress less. take projects one step at a time. look at each day closer, and the big picture a little less. because the big picture and the future is super stressful. in fact, it often terrifies me. i haven't had any panic attacks since the beginning of summer which is good, but i just gotta remember to keep breathing. and to laugh. and smile.
remind me sometimes okay?