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i hate when i try to have a decent conversation with someone and all they can do is think about the next thing that they are going to say to contradict me. it's so aggrivating. i mean,i was trying to discuss a problem with someone and all they could do was contradict me, not listen to me, and then about 2 minutes later after the conversation ended, i thought of another way of explaining my situation, i go and see if that would make my point better, and they completely brush me off, by saying "i really don't want to talk about it anymore".. wtf? im trying to express my feelings, you are supposed to be my friend and listen to what i have to say, and maybe make me see it another way, which they did, but didn't do it reverse.
And it's not even a problem that happend out of the blue, no, i've stated this before. and yes, maybe i was expressing my feelings to the wrong person, like saying that it was soley her fault, and i said that i wasnt angry at her, but that i was simply expressing my feelings, once again... i don't know if i can actually deal with a problem like that.
when i have a problem, i like to talk it out and get to the root of it and have it resolved. and that's what i intend to do it the probem doesn't improve. i am going to take myself out of the equation and that's that. it's something i don't like and i don't have to put up with it if i don't like it. i shouldn't have to live my life keeping my feelings to myself. and if that causes a riff in that part of our relationship, so be it, but i refuse to suffer.. ok, maybe suffer is the wrong term. but i at least want to bring the subject to everyone's attention and see if anything can be done to either help me be ok with it or i just leave myself out of that part... i don't know. i said that i would give 2 weeks to see if things improved. if not, then im going to address everyone. i just wish the person i talked to would be more understanding of my feelings and not brush me off when i actually have something of substance to say... ugh..
And it's not even a problem that happend out of the blue, no, i've stated this before. and yes, maybe i was expressing my feelings to the wrong person, like saying that it was soley her fault, and i said that i wasnt angry at her, but that i was simply expressing my feelings, once again... i don't know if i can actually deal with a problem like that.
when i have a problem, i like to talk it out and get to the root of it and have it resolved. and that's what i intend to do it the probem doesn't improve. i am going to take myself out of the equation and that's that. it's something i don't like and i don't have to put up with it if i don't like it. i shouldn't have to live my life keeping my feelings to myself. and if that causes a riff in that part of our relationship, so be it, but i refuse to suffer.. ok, maybe suffer is the wrong term. but i at least want to bring the subject to everyone's attention and see if anything can be done to either help me be ok with it or i just leave myself out of that part... i don't know. i said that i would give 2 weeks to see if things improved. if not, then im going to address everyone. i just wish the person i talked to would be more understanding of my feelings and not brush me off when i actually have something of substance to say... ugh..