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I'm really tired today. It could be from the pot brownie I ate shortly before falling to sleep last night. I just purchased a train ticket home for Sat, Jan 5. It's New Years Eve and Stephanie is down because she thinks I don't care as much as her about leaving Saint Paul. I do. But I'm also focusing on the positive things for me and her. I'm looking forward to reuniting with a few friends, seeing all 6 cats and Bryan, finding a job, researching farming internships for the summer. She knows she needs time to sell or get rid of enough of her things to travel across the country into Colorado, Wyoming, Sacramento and Portland. We'll see each other in 2 months after her lease is up and she comes to Indiana for a short time.
60 days isn't that long. It'll give me time to clear my mind and find myself a little more. It worries me she'll never come to Indiana in March. I'm also worried I won't talk to her once I leave. Partly because she told me this could happen.
I'm starting to get annoyed by the thought of going home. I remember how the house used to smell but I'm not expecting it to smell the same. I'm expecting the Fortville Reporter to be scattered on the living room floor and empty plastic cups on every stand. But that's okay because I won't be there as much as I used to be. I'll have a job. Maybe I'll volunteer too. I've been working out at the YMCA in Saint Paul for the past couple weeks with Stephanie and it's made me want to get a membership. I think Bryan would enjoy going there with me too.
60 days isn't that long. It'll give me time to clear my mind and find myself a little more. It worries me she'll never come to Indiana in March. I'm also worried I won't talk to her once I leave. Partly because she told me this could happen.
I'm starting to get annoyed by the thought of going home. I remember how the house used to smell but I'm not expecting it to smell the same. I'm expecting the Fortville Reporter to be scattered on the living room floor and empty plastic cups on every stand. But that's okay because I won't be there as much as I used to be. I'll have a job. Maybe I'll volunteer too. I've been working out at the YMCA in Saint Paul for the past couple weeks with Stephanie and it's made me want to get a membership. I think Bryan would enjoy going there with me too.