The stuff thats been eating me for a while...
Oh.
My.
God.
Elisa's gone. Shes dead. Oh my God. No one was there when she died, but her sister Anita said she choked herself on a hammock.
Suicide? Or accident?
No one knows. But for some reason everyone in my college knows about it, and 20 bucks says Ashleys the reason for all the rumours. Ashleys telling everyone Elisa commited suicide, but she doesnt know that for sure. I tried telling her that it could have been an accident, and now shes pissed at me. I want to strangle her...its SO fucking disrespectful to spread a rumour about a dead person. I cant believe this. Elisas gone.
This whole month Ive been praying (I strongly believe in God) for my good friend who used to cut herself and attempted suicide twice. I prayed to God to protect her from herself. We found out about Elisa yesterday, and today she said to me, "Hailey, if anything ever happens to me, this is what will happen. I dont want that."
She also told me she stopped cutting herself yesterday.
What if its my fault Elisa died? What if God sacraficed her to stop Surina from hurting herself? I sang, I wrote in my paper diary, I talked to Matt, and now Im typing it here, but I seriously cant get this thought out of my head.
Elisa was my friend.She didnt deserve to die. Akane was passing out pins today that said "RIP Elisa - we love you babe" in her calligraphy with her special old-fashioned pen. There was room to write at the bottom, and this is what mine says: "You helped me when I was at my lowest point, youve listened to everyones problems. I hope youre safe now, sweetheart, because everyone wants that. We love you, Elisa."
I cant take another death. Pat Tilman, Alex, my dad, Lena, and now Elisa.
God. I cant take it.
The wind blows cold when you reach the top.. -Jewel.
Damn straight it does.
My.
God.
Elisa's gone. Shes dead. Oh my God. No one was there when she died, but her sister Anita said she choked herself on a hammock.
Suicide? Or accident?
No one knows. But for some reason everyone in my college knows about it, and 20 bucks says Ashleys the reason for all the rumours. Ashleys telling everyone Elisa commited suicide, but she doesnt know that for sure. I tried telling her that it could have been an accident, and now shes pissed at me. I want to strangle her...its SO fucking disrespectful to spread a rumour about a dead person. I cant believe this. Elisas gone.
This whole month Ive been praying (I strongly believe in God) for my good friend who used to cut herself and attempted suicide twice. I prayed to God to protect her from herself. We found out about Elisa yesterday, and today she said to me, "Hailey, if anything ever happens to me, this is what will happen. I dont want that."
She also told me she stopped cutting herself yesterday.
What if its my fault Elisa died? What if God sacraficed her to stop Surina from hurting herself? I sang, I wrote in my paper diary, I talked to Matt, and now Im typing it here, but I seriously cant get this thought out of my head.
Elisa was my friend.She didnt deserve to die. Akane was passing out pins today that said "RIP Elisa - we love you babe" in her calligraphy with her special old-fashioned pen. There was room to write at the bottom, and this is what mine says: "You helped me when I was at my lowest point, youve listened to everyones problems. I hope youre safe now, sweetheart, because everyone wants that. We love you, Elisa."
I cant take another death. Pat Tilman, Alex, my dad, Lena, and now Elisa.
God. I cant take it.
The wind blows cold when you reach the top.. -Jewel.
Damn straight it does.