To Those in the Know

[hail_st_joseph]

I've been smoking in hospital. In bed. What a filthy bugger. Jordan would be livid. Can't help it.

Thomas came by to visit me today. Told me about some recording and I actually felt anger. Feeling something was good. Even if that was what it was. I can't imagine. Just...god. Having to watch someone you love die

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[in_spectre_mors]

Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. By which I mean both the picture, and what it inspired in you.

Seeing that filth was something I'll never forget. But we did it for Tasha.

[hail_st_joseph]

I think it's pretty beautiful that he knew exactly what he was doing in the photo too. That's special, and thus makes it even more inspiring.

I know why. I would have done it too, had I been there. But I'm glad I wasn't. I don't think it would have done me any good, especially not right now.

[in_spectre_mors]

Absolutely. I know and love that look well, and it makes me very special indeed to know that Thomas can see it, and know exactly what it means.

I know you would have, Joe. And I absolutely agree with you. You're an excellent man for the fact that you would have been willing anyway.

[hail_st_joseph]

Well I think you're special!

..in the good way...

I'm just glad he didn't watch it alone. Not that it needed to be inflicted on others...

[in_spectre_mors]

I know what you mean! Indeed, I know it on both counts. I'd quite happily not have the memory of having seen that video, but better that than Thomas having to go through it on his own.

[hail_st_joseph]

Is he alright now? I know he was here, but people tend to act overly cheerful when in the presence of someone suffering depression, so it's hard to gauge what's real and what's not. Like that conversation up there. All the pretending everything is fine. Which is good, but I know they're all freaking out underneath it.

Are you alright?

[in_spectre_mors]

I think Thomas is genuinely doing better. And I do believe James had quite the hand in that, as he always does. I don't think he's all the way better yet, but he'll get there.

As for me... I'm mostly tired. Worried, of course. Something like this happens, and we all end up thinking about just how many things we have to worry about. I'll be okay, though. I just hope we find her soon.

[hail_st_joseph]

James is magnificent. Children always are. And I'll stop there before I get morose again.

I hope she gets found soon too. Are you okay after having watched that video? I heard you've been busy and I wondered if you even had time to sort of...deal.

[in_spectre_mors]

Very true, my dear Joe.

You're right, there hasn't been a lot of time to process. It wouldn't surprise me if things bubble to the surface when this is all over. But I suppose that's a bridge to cross when we come to it. They certainly weren't images one can just walk away from lightly.

[hail_st_joseph]

Well you know where to find me if you need a big brother, alright?

[in_spectre_mors]

Absolutely, Joe. And thank you. I probably will be taking you up on that.

I love you, Joe.

[hail_st_joseph]

I love you too, Spectre.