Ending week thoughts
I still haven't made up my mind about South Africa. I have been thinking about it a lot, but trying to allow myself to take a break, too.
Everything seems like it is coming to a halt; but it is making me a bit excited because it frees me up to really start a new life, because there are no strings left behind.
I am just wanting to make sure that I am not leaving behind something that could have been everything I wanted.
I've spent the week in New Jersey with my brother, his wife, and his in-laws. It was good to meet them and spend some time with them. His wife was a friend of mine in college. I met some of the family before he did years ago, but he has really gotten to know them.
It has been a little weird being with them. I know that I am accepted, but I don't really have anything to talk about. I actually feel a little anti-social. I have been sleeping in every day and been on my own schedule. I join them down at the beach, just later after they all get there.
My big goal of the week was just trying to get some sun on my legs. They are so pasty! They just glare in the sunlight. I think I finally got a tinge of color today. Also been working on just getting some reading done.
I still have some work to finish from Covenant Players, but hopefully I will be done with that soon. I really don't want to hang on to that.
I spent time on the phone last night with someone that is very dear to me. I really thought that this guy was "the one". Now I just feel like a dumb girl that can't let go. That's what I have been talking about in letting things go and cutting all the strings. I stuck around for awhile waiting for him to come around and realize that he wanted me, but he kept pursuing another girl. Now he decided he wants me, but I didn't "jump" when he wanted me to, so now he is quite upset with me. It all just doesn't seem right anymore. I want to date other people; I just need to realize that I can and hopefully will meet someone. Maybe I should just do eHarmony like the rest of the world ;)
Okay...maybe not. After dating the last guy, I realized that "the one" was a jerk to me, and the other actually knew how to treat people. Guy B was a great guy. It's too bad it didn't work out. Emotions just didn't grow, but we still enjoy each other. It was one of the most amicable break-ups I think in existence today. We broke up on Monday, but still dated the rest of the week, since we had already planned that I would be staying with him. He's storing some of my stuff, and I borrowed some of his luggage for my trip. It's interesting. I am blessed that he was around to help when I needed him and he has been a real encouragement to me.
So, now I have to figure out what I am doing next week. Travel to Virginia; but what day? For how long? How much do I start searching for jobs right now? What day do I get some work done?... The great dilemmas in life.
Everything seems like it is coming to a halt; but it is making me a bit excited because it frees me up to really start a new life, because there are no strings left behind.
I am just wanting to make sure that I am not leaving behind something that could have been everything I wanted.
I've spent the week in New Jersey with my brother, his wife, and his in-laws. It was good to meet them and spend some time with them. His wife was a friend of mine in college. I met some of the family before he did years ago, but he has really gotten to know them.
It has been a little weird being with them. I know that I am accepted, but I don't really have anything to talk about. I actually feel a little anti-social. I have been sleeping in every day and been on my own schedule. I join them down at the beach, just later after they all get there.
My big goal of the week was just trying to get some sun on my legs. They are so pasty! They just glare in the sunlight. I think I finally got a tinge of color today. Also been working on just getting some reading done.
I still have some work to finish from Covenant Players, but hopefully I will be done with that soon. I really don't want to hang on to that.
I spent time on the phone last night with someone that is very dear to me. I really thought that this guy was "the one". Now I just feel like a dumb girl that can't let go. That's what I have been talking about in letting things go and cutting all the strings. I stuck around for awhile waiting for him to come around and realize that he wanted me, but he kept pursuing another girl. Now he decided he wants me, but I didn't "jump" when he wanted me to, so now he is quite upset with me. It all just doesn't seem right anymore. I want to date other people; I just need to realize that I can and hopefully will meet someone. Maybe I should just do eHarmony like the rest of the world ;)
Okay...maybe not. After dating the last guy, I realized that "the one" was a jerk to me, and the other actually knew how to treat people. Guy B was a great guy. It's too bad it didn't work out. Emotions just didn't grow, but we still enjoy each other. It was one of the most amicable break-ups I think in existence today. We broke up on Monday, but still dated the rest of the week, since we had already planned that I would be staying with him. He's storing some of my stuff, and I borrowed some of his luggage for my trip. It's interesting. I am blessed that he was around to help when I needed him and he has been a real encouragement to me.
So, now I have to figure out what I am doing next week. Travel to Virginia; but what day? For how long? How much do I start searching for jobs right now? What day do I get some work done?... The great dilemmas in life.