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my new favorite past time is apparently cutting and drinking, I really enjoy it when the blood is enough to drip down my arm. oops. the last two weeks have been a dream and I'm struggling to get out of it. oh shit, that was deep. I'm stuck on that edge, I think if you get super deep into the occult you .. the veil has been thrown aside and yet I still cannot return. even the smell of my own life blood has trouble grounding me. I cant' stay grounded-- maybe it is the antidepressants- I was fine before them.. well anxious but shit we are an anxious culture- - upped levels of seratonin hmm I don't know enough to posit a hypothesis. I've been reading cindini - influence the psychology of persuasion and a great NLP book. I apply them at work =) and in my personal life. hehe