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i'm addicted to this stupid shit, for some reason it helps more than drowning my sorrows in a bottle. 43 razor marks up my right arm. yeah.. about that I really need to stop .. cause its fucking hot out and I can't stand wearing long sleeves.
i gave my friends ex some advice and a lil comfort over the internet and now we aren't friends anymore. he told me everything he could to make me feel like shit, every weakness he learned in being my friend he threw at me. My only goal is to get out of this town. Then comes education. I can't take another year in this place it is killing me slowly, wearing my soul down day after day.
on a side note.. there was something good going on .. haha I dunno what it was. . . well I have someone who loves me and is nice to me. thats good, she's great but I need to see her. it has been almost three months without seeing her. and our plans to life together of course aren't there anymore since we dont' know if we still have that spark. gotta work my ass off to fly her butt down here so we can see how things go. Good thing I have lots of friends in portland, I think i'll go there. crash on some couches until I find a home haha
i gave my friends ex some advice and a lil comfort over the internet and now we aren't friends anymore. he told me everything he could to make me feel like shit, every weakness he learned in being my friend he threw at me. My only goal is to get out of this town. Then comes education. I can't take another year in this place it is killing me slowly, wearing my soul down day after day.
on a side note.. there was something good going on .. haha I dunno what it was. . . well I have someone who loves me and is nice to me. thats good, she's great but I need to see her. it has been almost three months without seeing her. and our plans to life together of course aren't there anymore since we dont' know if we still have that spark. gotta work my ass off to fly her butt down here so we can see how things go. Good thing I have lots of friends in portland, I think i'll go there. crash on some couches until I find a home haha