You Laugh
- When you left, i lost a part of me. is that so hard to believe, come back baby please. cuz we belong together. I only think of you as breaking my heart, im trying to keep it together but i'm falling apart. I'm feeling all out of my element.
- Please please forgive me. but i wont be home again. barely concious you'll say to no one, isnt something missing. you wont cry for my absence. you forgot me long ago. am i so insignifcant. isnt something missing. isnt someone missing me. you wont try for me, not now.
so i went to polo today. and i got an application for swimwear etc. and i am soooooooo pumped. i want this job so bad. im pretty 100% sure i wont get hired though. because im too young and dont have experience. so yeah. ugh i want to work there SO bad. oh well. but yeah. i will try anyways. today at school...well i just realized something. there are so many people that you just walk by and dont really see. you know. its so wierd. and then there are those people that are just like i will notice you, i do know you and i will not be friendly to you and just walk by. kind of annoying. but i shouldnt talk. because i do that too. its just like you dont know if they remember who you are. so its all awkward. and its like ugh. i cant stand it. i dont like awkwardness. the good awkward makes me smile though. lol. its wierd ill just be walking down the hall and see someone and it'll remind me of something and i'll just start to smile. im cool like that u know? lmao. ...the bad awkwardness makes me want to disapear. i am so grateful to my friends who get me through the day...lol. i think i can be quite difficult sometimes. but thats just my opinion. so i heard a good joke today. okay well i TOLD a good joke today... why did the chicken cross the road? britney spears- because its not an egg, not yet a chicken.