SO SERIOUSLY!
So i was looking back at some other posts and the comment I left you and it made me think of a conversation we had with Brandy during our wonderful trip to PA. SO SERIOUSLY how many times do we say it?? It is one of those wonderful phrases attained during our wonderful stay at America's Rockin Rollin Coast. This in turn, along with the pics I got back, has made me seriously reconsider my decision not to go back next summer. I really would like to settle down and stay here and get everything in order in my life but then again I seriously would miss it soo much. Most of the people I love and care about are going back and that makes it all the more hard to say no. But then theres other factors in my life to consider. Theres the apt but i probaby could always get out of it. I just dont know what to do. It seems like the "easy way out" but i just dont know anywmore. It will all depend on what happens in the next couple of months with my parents and my grandpa. Watching him tonight broke my heart. I love that man so much and seeing all the pain he is in hurts me. I dont know how my sister and dad can do what they do everynight. I helped him into bed and did all the little things we take for granted, like brushing our teeth. It may seem like a mindless task that we all do everyday more than once but he cant even do that. Granted he has false ones but they still need taken care of and I had to do it for him. I left there crying because i cant stand to see the man that i have admired for my entire life in the state he is in. I dont know what I will do when the time comes that I will have to live without him. I know that everyone dies and all that but it doesnt make it any easier. My grandparents were the ones i could turn to when my parents were shitty, and he is all i have left from the 4. I know I am being over dramatic and all that so I'll stop now. On a lighter note i know i said this already but i am so excited for tonight!! Looking at the pics made me so much more excited. Road trips with Ty, Rachel, Brent, and Josh are always fun. Love yas!