Jan 23, 2007 21:54
"You are not a unique and beautiful flower."
This runs through my mind frequently during my English class. I was also reminded of it when I got my letter from the College of Arts and Letters informing me that I had achieved the Dean's List. It was a form letter with a stamped signature. I understand that the Dean is not going to take the time to sign each and every letter that needs to be sent to all the students in A and L that made the Dean's List. However, this form letter reminded me that the Dean probably does not really give a damn about me or my high grade point for the semester. To send out these letters, all you have to do is put together a mail merge in Microsoft Word. Fantastic. I am not a unique and beautiful flower.
I am in an English class with mostly English majors who are not going to be teachers. I would go so far as to guess that they consider themselves better than those of us who are going to be English teachers. They are so wordy. Make no mistake - I am confident in my verbal skills. I just don't feel the need to muddy up my explainations and comments by being verbose, especially since I'm going to be an English teacher. I doubt 9th grade kids are going to know what hegemony or verbose means. I have to be practical. I get annoyed with this because I used to be a kid who used large words to present herself as superior when she felt inferior or upset. So I know that some of these kids have to be using huge words have to be feeling that way. It takes one to know one.
I was reading a friend's journal today, and she wrote that people often mistook her confidence and considered it bitchiness. I am annoyed that confident women are often made to feel like being confident is equal to being a bitch. That's just not the case. I refuse to walk hunched over and or avoid eye contact because people may perceive me to be a bitch.
dean's list,
friends,
teaching,
english class,
confidence