I feel super super good about life.
Haganah, EIE? I don't know. The decision is going to have to be made sooner than I would like, because on Feb.11th my academic schedule is due for next year. I wish I could make a schedule, then, when I really know if I am going on EIE or not, change it. But apparently I wouldn't be able to do that because all the classes will be full. If I do intend on going to Israel, I would have to take AP English and AP US rather than AIS (combined US History class and English class), which a course specific to New Trier and is not offered in Israel. There is a slight, slight, chance that maybe New Trier would be okay with me taking AIS for a semester, then when I depart to Israel allowing me to take AP US and AP English. I doubt that's very likely to happen.
I feel like I already have made up my mind not to go on EIE because of my enthusiasm for Haganah. I feel bad about this because I know that although my flame and passion for Haganah will always burn bright, I understand that it is burning particularly brightly at this junction in time. I'm afraid I've made up my mind already, without giving EIE a fair chance. I don't even think my parents are aware of my indecision although it troubles me greatly. It's good problem to have, at least going on EIE is an option. Even so, I feel that if I stay in America, I’ll be passing up an incredible experience. At the same time though, if I leave to Israel, I'll be squandering an entire semester of Haganah. And I really love Haganah, and would hate to part with it. Either way, I feel like I'm missing out on something. It's terrible, to focus on the negative though, and so it's comforting to know that either choice, I will have an awesome time. Maybe I should just defer a year of college and go to Israel on the same program that Ari Feinstein went on.
Amidst all this confusion and angst, I feel great. In these last two weeks I have seldom opened my backpack, always a good sign. Little effort or time has gone into much but Haganah, which once again, a good sign. I feel bold. Suddenly, I want to shake things up.
Wow...I used "I" 30 times.
I feel like I already have made up my mind not to go on EIE because of my enthusiasm for Haganah. I feel bad about this because I know that although my flame and passion for Haganah will always burn bright, I understand that it is burning particularly brightly at this junction in time. I'm afraid I've made up my mind already, without giving EIE a fair chance. I don't even think my parents are aware of my indecision although it troubles me greatly. It's good problem to have, at least going on EIE is an option. Even so, I feel that if I stay in America, I’ll be passing up an incredible experience. At the same time though, if I leave to Israel, I'll be squandering an entire semester of Haganah. And I really love Haganah, and would hate to part with it. Either way, I feel like I'm missing out on something. It's terrible, to focus on the negative though, and so it's comforting to know that either choice, I will have an awesome time. Maybe I should just defer a year of college and go to Israel on the same program that Ari Feinstein went on.
Amidst all this confusion and angst, I feel great. In these last two weeks I have seldom opened my backpack, always a good sign. Little effort or time has gone into much but Haganah, which once again, a good sign. I feel bold. Suddenly, I want to shake things up.
Wow...I used "I" 30 times.