[100 suju challenge] tattoo
title:tattoo
theme:024. Spotlight, 4/100, 100 suju fics challenge
pairing:kyumin, implied kyumi
warning:grammar @_@ crack! rushed TT__TT
note:this one is a sequel for Changes~
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"Cho Kyuhyun? Is that you?"
Am I hallucinating? Or am I really hearing that voice again?
*flashback*
Its been six months since I debuted woth Super Junior.They changed me. They helped me to start a new life, and they accepted me to become a part of their family.
One of them became my bestfriend... and my lover. His name is Lee Sungmin. We really enjoy each other's company. We really like being together. And he helped me to face the spotlight. On the day when we celebrated my birthday, he confessed his feelings to me, eventhough he knows about my first love. He said that was okay, he'll still love me, he can wait.
Months have passed and I started to fall in love with Sungmin-hyung. He can really make me smile by his own cute ways. On his birthday, I told him what I feel for him. Then he smiled at me very sweet, the smile that really warms my heart.
From the day that we became lovers, we won't forget to kiss each other every morning. If one of us will leave earlier, either one of us will still wake up just to kiss each other. That's our daily routine as lovers. He also clings to me like a child when I'll go home late, hugging the pink cute bunny doll that I gave him.
On the night we had our first sex, I asked him if he can take me in. He just nodded innocently, not knowing the pain that awaits him. We continued, even though I know I'll just hurt him. He said he doesn't want to be the hindrance on our first sex. After we made love, he cried the whole night because of the pain he feels between his legs. I felt guilty, but I thought it was late, so I just hugged him while he's crying on my lap.
The next morning, everyone tried not to laugh on what they are seeing. Sungmin cannot walk normally. He can't even stand on his own. His twitched face is a great evidence that he's suffering from pain so we decided to give him rest that day.
Sungmin and I made lots of happy memories with each other. He loves me, and I also love him. But we both know that in the deepest corner of my heart, there's still a name that I can't erase... a name that stayed just like a tattoo on my heart.
~0o0~
We, Super Junior, decided to have our own sub-units. Each sub-unit has its own genre and type of music. I belong to Super Junior M, a sub-unit where we sing Chinese songs. I wonder why im in that group, i hate Chinese songs. I don't know, I just hate it. But I guess its not bad at all.
Each of us promoted our sub-units, and we're very happy to gain more fans. But everyone was shocked when it was announced that Super Junior M will be having two more members from China which left the fans number of questions like- "who are they?" "are they going to be official member of Super Junior?" "will they perform only for Super Junior M?"
Many fans said it was alright for them to have more members of Super Junior. But many also complained about it. They want Super Junior13 forever.
We also want to know the answers for that questions so we decided to go to China to meet them.
When we arrived there, I remembered the memories when we went there. I remembered the memories of my encounter with my first love. I felt the same thing that I felt when I was here 4 years ago. I never thought i'll be going back to this place.
"Kyuhyun? We need to go now, we'll meet them in 30 minutes.", Hankyung, another member of Super Junior M, cut off my thoughts. He's talking about the other two members of Super Junior M who were our purposes in going here in China.
I just nodded and smiled. Then suddenly I felt nervous of meeting those two. I just felt that my mind is telling me that I shouldn't go. I don't know... there's something wrong.
"NO. Not because I am feeling like this, I won't welcome the other members. I should go.", I told myself, then I walked hurriedly towards the door.
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Donghae and the others were excited while we're in the car, heading to the meeting place.
"I bet those two are cute!", Donghae told everyone with excitement.
No one answered him. Then suddenly, Siwon got his cellphone and dialed a number. Donghae looked at him, raising an eyebrow.
"Hey Wonnie, who are you calling?"
"Im calling Eunhyuk, and i'll tell him what you said. I bet he'll gonna kick your ass when we go home.", Siwon told Donghae while grinning.
Donghae hurriedly grabbed Siwon's phone and pout at him. "Why- you!! I just said that I think that those two were cute! There's nothing wrong with that!"
Siwon will say something but the manager spoke up. "Stop arguing now. We are here."
All of us stayed silent. And when we got out of the car, my heart beats so fast like a train. I decided to go to the bathroom first and relax myself there.
*end of flashback*
I was staring at my reflection on the mirror for several minutes now in the bathroom, my heart still beating so fast. I looked down at my feet and let out a sigh.
I was ready to go now... but... a voice suddenly came in near the door.
"Cho Kyuhyun? Is that you?"
Am I hallucinating? Or am I really hearing that voice again?
My heart started to beat again, this time, crazier than earlier. My heart beats so fast and loud that I almost cannot hear anything except the heartbeat.
I know that voice. I cant be wrong. I waited many years just to hear that voice again. But my mind is telling me not to look at the owner of that voice... the owner of my heart.
"Kyuhyun?"
I slowly turned my back. Then I saw you... "Z-zhoumi...", I mumbled.
"Kyuhyun! How are you?! Wow... we meet again!", you told me with joy, hugging me tightly.
I pulled myself from your hug, smiling sadly. The feelings came back, the feelings that I felt when I fell in love with you. The memories flashed in my mind;the moment you asked me why am i crying near the beach, the moment you gave me the apple, and the moment you left me behind.
"I-I am fine.", I answered, trying to avoid your eyes.
"Like I told you before when we first met, i'll be happy to meet you again. And here we are! Seeing each other in an unusual place! Isn't that great?", you told me with a giggly smile.
"Yeah. I-I am happy to meet you again."
You didn't answer back. Silence conquered the bathroom.
"Is there something wrong?", you asked me, trying to catch my eyes.
"N-no. Uh, I need to go. There are people who are waiting for me... outside."
I hurriedly run towards the door to escape from you.
Zhoumi... Now I know, I still love you, I still have feelings for you. But, I don't want to hurt Sungmin. He loves me. He helped me to forget you. He's always there for me. I cant... I can't leave him just because you're back. Im sorry. And now I met you again, I am ready to face the truth that we are not meant to each other.
Goodbye... first love...
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I wiped my tears before going back to the others.
I saw them, talking with two chinese looking guys. Obviously, they are the two other members of Super Junior M.
And when I saw them clearly...
"Oh, Kyuhyun's here. Let me introduce him to you, he's Cho Kyuhyun, one of our members.", Hankyung told the two with a smile.
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"Z-Zhoumi?"
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I thought ecaping from you is the end. I thought i can treat you as you never existed.
But...
Maybe it is true that we cannot escape from the truth.