[50 Songs Fic Challenge] Linger
Author's Notes:
-Written for the 50 Songs Challenge
-The songs is inspired and revolves around the song My Immortal by Evanescence
-Non-beta'd. Do bear with me.
-Enjoy~
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Linger
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
Play, pause, stop, repeat. Play, pause, stop, repeat.
Like this broken record, the feeling of your touch lingers. As if it was just yesterday when you held my hand for the very last time.
You’re a disease in my system I need to ger rid of. It’ll be quite a good riddance, really. But no. Oh, how much you love it, corrupting every cell in my system. Oh, how much you pollute every single fiber of my brain with thoughts of you.
Play, forward, then again, play.
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
How to do this? Really. How do I fucking erase your entire existence in my life? How do I rewrite our history? They say time heal all wounds. But it’s been half a year already and this ache in my heart won’t go away. How do I make this stop? How do I get rid of you?
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
It was a beautiful love. No, really, it was. Only if you have stayed. Only if you have fought with me against all odds. Only if... But as I was blinded by the sunshine that your smile emitted, you left me behind. And your memory remains. Oh, how hard it is for me to sleep hearing your voice over and over like this broken song taunting me. Oh, how painful it is to close my eyes as it shows your face as if you’re just there mocking me.
And I continue the song because it need its proper end yet…
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Yet it resonates in me… This part of the song… It’s been telling what I’ve wanted to say to myself. Trying to make a point to me.
That you’re immortal. Like a tattoo, etched in my heart, you will not leave me. No, you won’t. Physically, you left. Yes, I know. But not quite. No, darling. You’re immortal. You made sure I won’t get away from you. Like a sick trauma that’ll haunt me for eternity.
You’re immortal. Whatever I do, even if I try all my life, you’re not leaving me. No, you won’t. Because you linger here in my heart. In my soul. You linger….
-Written for the 50 Songs Challenge
-The songs is inspired and revolves around the song My Immortal by Evanescence
-Non-beta'd. Do bear with me.
-Enjoy~
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Linger
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
Play, pause, stop, repeat. Play, pause, stop, repeat.
Like this broken record, the feeling of your touch lingers. As if it was just yesterday when you held my hand for the very last time.
You’re a disease in my system I need to ger rid of. It’ll be quite a good riddance, really. But no. Oh, how much you love it, corrupting every cell in my system. Oh, how much you pollute every single fiber of my brain with thoughts of you.
Play, forward, then again, play.
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
How to do this? Really. How do I fucking erase your entire existence in my life? How do I rewrite our history? They say time heal all wounds. But it’s been half a year already and this ache in my heart won’t go away. How do I make this stop? How do I get rid of you?
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
It was a beautiful love. No, really, it was. Only if you have stayed. Only if you have fought with me against all odds. Only if... But as I was blinded by the sunshine that your smile emitted, you left me behind. And your memory remains. Oh, how hard it is for me to sleep hearing your voice over and over like this broken song taunting me. Oh, how painful it is to close my eyes as it shows your face as if you’re just there mocking me.
And I continue the song because it need its proper end yet…
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Yet it resonates in me… This part of the song… It’s been telling what I’ve wanted to say to myself. Trying to make a point to me.
That you’re immortal. Like a tattoo, etched in my heart, you will not leave me. No, you won’t. Physically, you left. Yes, I know. But not quite. No, darling. You’re immortal. You made sure I won’t get away from you. Like a sick trauma that’ll haunt me for eternity.
You’re immortal. Whatever I do, even if I try all my life, you’re not leaving me. No, you won’t. Because you linger here in my heart. In my soul. You linger….