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do you ever get that feeling that you aren't worth it? that you'll never do anything right? that you'll always be second best...or third or fourth...just never FIRST?
this feeling of failure is constant lately. i have started to take things to mean that i'm just never going to be good enough. maybe i'll get it together one day, but i feel like it will be too late.
on the boy side of things. i don't care if you think i'm cute or hot or whatever! i want to know that i make someone smile, that someone feels the urge to talk to me. i want to feel like someone wants to get to know me better.
i don't really care about finding a boy. i have my friends and their companionship is enough for now. i just want to feel like i am going somewhere.
and i'm not posting this to get sympathy or reassurance. i just want you to know how i feel.
this feeling of failure is constant lately. i have started to take things to mean that i'm just never going to be good enough. maybe i'll get it together one day, but i feel like it will be too late.
on the boy side of things. i don't care if you think i'm cute or hot or whatever! i want to know that i make someone smile, that someone feels the urge to talk to me. i want to feel like someone wants to get to know me better.
i don't really care about finding a boy. i have my friends and their companionship is enough for now. i just want to feel like i am going somewhere.
and i'm not posting this to get sympathy or reassurance. i just want you to know how i feel.