uh-oh
i really think i like alcohol way too much
it doesn't take much to get me tipsy, though
and i hate the taste
but it's fun
and it's kind of scary
there is a history of substance abuse in my family
oh, well
one day at a time
it's not like i'm getting drunk during the day
fun times this weekend
it feels like the crew is coming back together, although i am seeing some things in certain people that i really don't like
i see some i really care about using alcohol(and some using more illict substances) to deal with, or rather, avoid dealing with things
or maybe they're just having a good time...?
like me...
like i said
"uh-oh"
in more superficial news, i hate my hair and i feel fat
i don't have the disclipline to work out more than once ever so often
and boys never like me
and i'm broke
haha!
i'm thankful i don't have more to worry about
but in all seriousness, i've noticed how i am really flaky and unreliable. i don't call people back. i am content to stay at home and not call anyone. i wait for people to call me to hang out. i hate it, but i really like having "me" time. i have spent all my life never having really been alone; dawn has been with me since we were born. i'm just really digging the solitude right now.
so, to sum things up:
i am on the track to alcoholism
some friends are hurting and i feel helpless
i am becoming more and more of a loner
and boys just don't like me
and my wallet is empty
woe is me, goddammit
<3
I'M STILL SMILING THROUGH IT ALL!
it doesn't take much to get me tipsy, though
and i hate the taste
but it's fun
and it's kind of scary
there is a history of substance abuse in my family
oh, well
one day at a time
it's not like i'm getting drunk during the day
fun times this weekend
it feels like the crew is coming back together, although i am seeing some things in certain people that i really don't like
i see some i really care about using alcohol(and some using more illict substances) to deal with, or rather, avoid dealing with things
or maybe they're just having a good time...?
like me...
like i said
"uh-oh"
in more superficial news, i hate my hair and i feel fat
i don't have the disclipline to work out more than once ever so often
and boys never like me
and i'm broke
haha!
i'm thankful i don't have more to worry about
but in all seriousness, i've noticed how i am really flaky and unreliable. i don't call people back. i am content to stay at home and not call anyone. i wait for people to call me to hang out. i hate it, but i really like having "me" time. i have spent all my life never having really been alone; dawn has been with me since we were born. i'm just really digging the solitude right now.
so, to sum things up:
i am on the track to alcoholism
some friends are hurting and i feel helpless
i am becoming more and more of a loner
and boys just don't like me
and my wallet is empty
woe is me, goddammit
<3
I'M STILL SMILING THROUGH IT ALL!