♕ |[15]| Dream thou - and from thy sleep, then wake to weep

[had_not_lived]

[ Private; hackable ]

I never thought about what I was giving up, only what I was getting away from. What I left behind. I don't even know what happened, after-- that is selfish, isn't it. I didn't stop for a moment to think. Maybe if I had, if I'd been able to see past how unhappy I was...

I could have... but my father would have found me, would have hunted me down. He would have followed me to the ends of the earth to keep me from 'ruining my life.' Throwing it away. At the time it seemed somehow satisfying, doing... the only thing I thought I could, that he wouldn't be able to stop.

Damn it all. I can't take this-- it shouldn't be me, I don't deserve what he did. Not now. Not after...

It would have been nice. It really would have. I would've liked that to be me.

[ /Private ]

[ Filtered to the Deities ]

I'm... not really sure how I'm supposed to go about doing this. It's about the deal Todd Anderson made?-- if you have a minute.

[ /Filtered ]

If I made a fool of myself the other day, I'm sorry about it. I really didn't know I was cursed.

[ooc; on top of the Road Not Taken curse, he found this ;_; aaaangsssst. tags may be spotty for a while, costumewerk /m/,]