What is Up and Happy Birthday To Me
Sigh. And Yeah. Today I turn twenty one. I am starting to feel old. Ok and to the one person that I know that reads my journal here is what was up the day that I broke down and went nuts. It was about Mike basically. I thought I had forgiven him but I was wrong. Can you truly forgive anyone when they have no idea what they did to you or all that was involved. I am still angery at him and I want him to feel horrible and hurt the way I did. Now I know one way that I could hurt him but I will not do that to him. I couldn't do that to anyone. How could I look the man that I ONCE loved in the eyes and tell him that I blame him for the fact that our child that he didn't know about died before it was fully ready to come into the world. At three months I didn't show but I suspected that I was for the loss of my period and tenderness of the breasts. As for how I figured it out was when I lost the child. It hurt and I blame him for that.
But today is not a day for sad thoughts. It is a day of celabration. I am getting older and great things are gonna happen to me. Today I feel that all of my dreams can come true. I feel something in the air, something good is gonna happen to me and I am open and ready to grasp what ever is in store for me. Change can be good as long as you are open and accepting of what may happen. Plus I have been slowly making friends. Plus my friend Jen is moving back to Florida. YEAH! I am happy about that.
Also tomarrow is six months for Joe and I. Whoo hoo. Well there are other things I want to talk about. But they will have to wait untill later for no more sad talk today. But I have to run so later.
"Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me....Well you get the point."
Yve
But today is not a day for sad thoughts. It is a day of celabration. I am getting older and great things are gonna happen to me. Today I feel that all of my dreams can come true. I feel something in the air, something good is gonna happen to me and I am open and ready to grasp what ever is in store for me. Change can be good as long as you are open and accepting of what may happen. Plus I have been slowly making friends. Plus my friend Jen is moving back to Florida. YEAH! I am happy about that.
Also tomarrow is six months for Joe and I. Whoo hoo. Well there are other things I want to talk about. But they will have to wait untill later for no more sad talk today. But I have to run so later.
"Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me....Well you get the point."
Yve