I now know what its like to die in a horror movie

[habit4insan]

So, during my last MRI they found another tumor taht was growing, that was last tuesday. I was then scheduled for a gamma knife, which has little to do with knifes and alot to do with gamma, today. lets just say that they are not fun. first they dope you up to put you to sleep, then they drill a cage onto your skull. they then attach said cage onto a table and put you into a tube where you are radiated. instead of the lasers moving, the move your head to weird angles so your neck hurts like a bitch. after the few hours of that they come in with a power drill and unscrew the cage from your skull, a little blood follows the screws. A few minutes later the worst pain inmaginable comes. I know pain and this is by far the worst, I didnt even fuss when they cut open my skull.

For one of my classes my teacher is making me get a doctors note. it kind of pisses me off, why the fuck would i make up taht i was missing class and unable to turn in an assignment so i could go get gamma knifed. fuck him.

in other news, I've lost a good deal of weight and gained some muscle, so i'm not nearly as fat but only weigh about 10lbs less than i did a little while ago. Life is pretty good for the most part. I'm hopefully getting a basset hound next year =)