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Nearing the end of my third year of college, in the midst of exam/Hell week, I can't seem to accept the fact that this is happening, this is my life. My roommate has this great quote in her profile, "Dont feel guilty if you dont know what you want to do with your life... the most interesting people I know didnt know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still dont."
I wish I could believe it, but I'm just constantly worrying..why am I here? Why am I getting this degree? I mean I'm studying what interests me, I made my own major. But will that get me where I want to be? I feel like everything I do has a huge impact on my future and I'm terrified I'm making the wrong decisions.
I am in love. That throws a curve-ball into everything. I didn't predict this to happen so soon in my life, it was more of a young professional/grad school kind of thing. I also didn't expect him to go to school 5 hours away. When you're an introvert like me and you have a long distance boyfriend, your school and the social context have nothing to offer you. That being said, my two roommates who have become my family here, the reasons I that stayed here are graduating. Next year, first semester I will be abroad. I keep fearing what my last semester will be like.
My head's always in the clouds, not in the light flurry carefree sense. In the constantly contemplating my future and worrying each step I take is in the wrong direction, kind of way.
I need to find an internship for this summer. I need direction. I always thought being free-spirited and uncertain was romanitic and appealing but it doesn't go so well with me.
I think mostly the fact my roommates and two other best friends at college are graduating is terrifying me. I feel like everyone I know is leaving...it makes me want to leave to...
I wish I could believe it, but I'm just constantly worrying..why am I here? Why am I getting this degree? I mean I'm studying what interests me, I made my own major. But will that get me where I want to be? I feel like everything I do has a huge impact on my future and I'm terrified I'm making the wrong decisions.
I am in love. That throws a curve-ball into everything. I didn't predict this to happen so soon in my life, it was more of a young professional/grad school kind of thing. I also didn't expect him to go to school 5 hours away. When you're an introvert like me and you have a long distance boyfriend, your school and the social context have nothing to offer you. That being said, my two roommates who have become my family here, the reasons I that stayed here are graduating. Next year, first semester I will be abroad. I keep fearing what my last semester will be like.
My head's always in the clouds, not in the light flurry carefree sense. In the constantly contemplating my future and worrying each step I take is in the wrong direction, kind of way.
I need to find an internship for this summer. I need direction. I always thought being free-spirited and uncertain was romanitic and appealing but it doesn't go so well with me.
I think mostly the fact my roommates and two other best friends at college are graduating is terrifying me. I feel like everyone I know is leaving...it makes me want to leave to...