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For once in my life, things actually seem to be working. D and I talk everyday. Usually online, but that's fine with me. He's so witty and funny.
Although, a boy from my past BP admitted he "was still in love with me" a few days ago. It was so strange...it was also online and in the midst of a bullshit conversation. It was so uncomfortable and then he alluded that we weren't going to talk anymore since I wasn't returning his affections. I tried to make it humorous and told him my neighbor had a crush on him. He said it wouldn't be fair since he was still in love with me...
Then my neighbors had a kegger last night. I wasn't really interested in going, I had had work earlier and had come home to do online posts that took awhile. I talked to D online, went with Bridget to her girlfriend's to get muffins. Sam and I tried to go to a costume shop but it was closed. Sam and I rented some movies, got milkshakes, and candy. While we were watching the movies I was talking to D online. I wondered to Sam if this was how my Friday nights were going to be from now. But... I didn't mind. I'd much rather stay home and talk to him then go out drinking talking to sketchy guys.
BP called me drunkily and said he was at my door. I knew he would be at the neighbor's kegger. Sam and I went downstairs. Christopher and Kate were also there. Everyone was drunk. Christopher was as usual, beligerent. It was sort of weird and annoying. We sat on the porch, singing songs that the neighbors were playing. The neighbor that had a crush on BP came over. He was more interested in talking on his phone. I was most interested in how my breathe was coming out smoky and white since it's starting to get cold.
I'm very happy about D. I'm trying to figure out when I can go visit again. I'd like to find someone else to ride with me. My ex-Matt from freshman year actaully lives by where D goes to school, so he said he might go with me sometime. We have about 5 weeks until Thanksgiving break, I'd like to go once. I feel optimistic for once in my life. I like him. He likes me. We'll make it work. There's people I work with, a guy whose girlfriend goes to school in Canada, a girl whose boyfriend is from FL and in the Navy and stationed in Africa.
And maybe I am a long distance kind of girl. I like to be loner here at school, hang out with Sam and occasionally get black out drunk. Distance doesn't allow for co-dependence.
I'm willing to make it work.
We're having a kegger tonight. I don't know if I ever wrote about it, but Rachel had this friend who had a girlfriend but was into me and wanted to break up with her. Well, I had told her to tell him he was a flake and I wasn't interested. He got really offended, like flake was a terrible thing to call someone. They finally broke up. The ex-girlfriend is suppose to come to my party. He's not coming out of fear "people will be talking" about him. My friends could care less. Anyway, if they both come it could be dramatic. I will retreat to my room and drunk-dial D.
I should go wake up Sam and obtain a keg...
Although, a boy from my past BP admitted he "was still in love with me" a few days ago. It was so strange...it was also online and in the midst of a bullshit conversation. It was so uncomfortable and then he alluded that we weren't going to talk anymore since I wasn't returning his affections. I tried to make it humorous and told him my neighbor had a crush on him. He said it wouldn't be fair since he was still in love with me...
Then my neighbors had a kegger last night. I wasn't really interested in going, I had had work earlier and had come home to do online posts that took awhile. I talked to D online, went with Bridget to her girlfriend's to get muffins. Sam and I tried to go to a costume shop but it was closed. Sam and I rented some movies, got milkshakes, and candy. While we were watching the movies I was talking to D online. I wondered to Sam if this was how my Friday nights were going to be from now. But... I didn't mind. I'd much rather stay home and talk to him then go out drinking talking to sketchy guys.
BP called me drunkily and said he was at my door. I knew he would be at the neighbor's kegger. Sam and I went downstairs. Christopher and Kate were also there. Everyone was drunk. Christopher was as usual, beligerent. It was sort of weird and annoying. We sat on the porch, singing songs that the neighbors were playing. The neighbor that had a crush on BP came over. He was more interested in talking on his phone. I was most interested in how my breathe was coming out smoky and white since it's starting to get cold.
I'm very happy about D. I'm trying to figure out when I can go visit again. I'd like to find someone else to ride with me. My ex-Matt from freshman year actaully lives by where D goes to school, so he said he might go with me sometime. We have about 5 weeks until Thanksgiving break, I'd like to go once. I feel optimistic for once in my life. I like him. He likes me. We'll make it work. There's people I work with, a guy whose girlfriend goes to school in Canada, a girl whose boyfriend is from FL and in the Navy and stationed in Africa.
And maybe I am a long distance kind of girl. I like to be loner here at school, hang out with Sam and occasionally get black out drunk. Distance doesn't allow for co-dependence.
I'm willing to make it work.
We're having a kegger tonight. I don't know if I ever wrote about it, but Rachel had this friend who had a girlfriend but was into me and wanted to break up with her. Well, I had told her to tell him he was a flake and I wasn't interested. He got really offended, like flake was a terrible thing to call someone. They finally broke up. The ex-girlfriend is suppose to come to my party. He's not coming out of fear "people will be talking" about him. My friends could care less. Anyway, if they both come it could be dramatic. I will retreat to my room and drunk-dial D.
I should go wake up Sam and obtain a keg...