REAL update.
hey again.
im so incredibly bored. so i decided to update for what friends i do have. hm. well. since i last really updated in january, mike and i broke up after almost two years. i guess he was getting bored or whatever. but yeah. it was me that actually said the words "it's over" because i had met justin. aka the most amazing boy on the planet. the only one that holds me when i cry. the only one i know who will actually sit with me just to talk. the one who calls, even if it's just for a second, to let me know he loves me. anyway.. i got really depressed in february and starting taking everything out on myself again. but it got better. and worse. before i knew it, it was time for the musical and i just couldn't do it. by then, i had too much on my plate, and just couldn't put any spare time into anything besides my work and my schoolwork. then, my grades started to slip and now im failing two classes. im so mad at myself. yes i have started sort of taking it out on myself again.
kay that was a really shitty update. but i don't care. no one reads these.
wanna know what happened today? i walked justin to his 4/5th period and went to my locker to get my science book, and between 2nd and 4th period someone had carved the words "fucking jew" into my locker.
of course, with my stress levels where they are, i start crying. not exactly a good way to deal with it, but hey. i shouldn't have to deal with that. but whatever. so i had to fill out a police report. and i hate cops to death, they scare me and i think most people know exactly why. yeahh. not fun.
then mrs mcmullen calls me into her office because someone (i swear, it was justin's mom) is concerned about me. and they threatened to call my dad. and if i know him, he'll blow everything way out of proportion like my mom did last year. but yeah im done.
i hope that updated.
-♥-rachel
im so incredibly bored. so i decided to update for what friends i do have. hm. well. since i last really updated in january, mike and i broke up after almost two years. i guess he was getting bored or whatever. but yeah. it was me that actually said the words "it's over" because i had met justin. aka the most amazing boy on the planet. the only one that holds me when i cry. the only one i know who will actually sit with me just to talk. the one who calls, even if it's just for a second, to let me know he loves me. anyway.. i got really depressed in february and starting taking everything out on myself again. but it got better. and worse. before i knew it, it was time for the musical and i just couldn't do it. by then, i had too much on my plate, and just couldn't put any spare time into anything besides my work and my schoolwork. then, my grades started to slip and now im failing two classes. im so mad at myself. yes i have started sort of taking it out on myself again.
kay that was a really shitty update. but i don't care. no one reads these.
wanna know what happened today? i walked justin to his 4/5th period and went to my locker to get my science book, and between 2nd and 4th period someone had carved the words "fucking jew" into my locker.
of course, with my stress levels where they are, i start crying. not exactly a good way to deal with it, but hey. i shouldn't have to deal with that. but whatever. so i had to fill out a police report. and i hate cops to death, they scare me and i think most people know exactly why. yeahh. not fun.
then mrs mcmullen calls me into her office because someone (i swear, it was justin's mom) is concerned about me. and they threatened to call my dad. and if i know him, he'll blow everything way out of proportion like my mom did last year. but yeah im done.
i hope that updated.
-♥-rachel