:.'broKen thIs fragiLe thiNg nOw'.:
:.'Here I go, scream my lungs out, and try to get to you, you are my only one.
I let go, but theres just no one, that gets me like you do, you are my only, my only one'.:
So i guess things have been basically amazing this year. I mean..I have this fucking amazing boyfriend who loves me more then anyone could imagine...even myself..i have a lot of friends...good grades...a good schedual and my family has been gettin along latly. I even have my parents thinking about letting me audition for eastern x-tream...which is a all starz competition cheerleading team. So i guess u could say im having an amaizng year so far...but theres still things i want to fix and change...as much as i try...i still cant get myself to b my goal weight. I have lost about 10 pounds since i started but i still feel fat. Yes i know...im very pretty and have a nice body...but ims till uncomfortable about myself in a bikini during the summer and im uncomfotable about my looks...its stupid i know...but thats just the way i am...ooo well...SO anyway...ive been thinking and i think im gonna throw myself a birthday party this year....its not like someone is gonna surprise me and plan me a party so i think im gonna do it by myself...im thinking of having it the weekend after my bday cause i dont think i have anything that weekend...um...it will probably a bunch of kids at my house...just hanging out..although i wish i could have it somewhere else cause i have nowhere for kids to hang out in my house cause my living room is tiny and i dont have a basement...hm...i duno maybe my friends will surprise me with a birthday party...probably not.
So shawn and i won in badmitten today..WHOOT WHOOT we had this like fukkin amazing comeback and we beat the other team by 3 after loosing by 5. It was sooo good!!! So now were moving on. Band night is this friday...score...i get to sit with the hs mb and play mb music like louie louis and final countdown...and NA NA NA hahah....it should be kinda fun...then i got a funfilled weekend of...fri-6-7 cheer sat 9-12 cheer and um...sat-angies bm so i should be real tired...oo and then theres a surprise sat night to sun...and ic ant say nemore...but then we play wyckoff on sun at 12 in wayne so all the wyckoff people reading this...U BETTER GO...I WANNA C U ALL!!!
Here i am, perfect as im ever gonna be, you'll see love me for me
::.'Lauren'.::