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i am so sick of the brief moments that i get where i think that i am on top of it all. then, usually it doesnt take more than a week its all fucked. i cant figure out if its me, or the shit that goes on around me or both. i am done with working with civilians, done with the fucking banks, done with trying to trust most of the people i meet. fuck dissapointment, fuck failure, fuck not trying your hardest to get done what needs to be done. i do not need more fuel to feed the shit that lives inside me.