May 16, 2005 22:01
so yesterday...
crazy what the rain does to me. i mean like real rain. thunderstorm rain. i...well its indescribable. but i missed the rainbows. i even wanted to go outside soooooo bad. i had to. but due to circumstances i cant explain i didnt go outside. i wanted to cry when i found out what i had missed. even though i knew before they told me. but i had to try my best to suppress it. it was successful enough. i miss him a lot. thats my only connection. i missed out. what else am i missing out on...the rest of the day was Good...i just....damn the things that mean the most to me i am the worst at putting into words...
today...
i am stressed...however i did get a very nice surprise. still confused. but i am afraid i am turning that into an excuse. i am confused. but i dont know...
still want to cry.
i think i am getting too personal in these things. sorry guys. this weekend in a nut shell was actually purty good.
=)