HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
I cant keep lying to myself. I keep telling myself "I love him but I want him out of me, I dont want to care about him anymore, I want someone bigger and better" but the truth is...I love him. I dont want him out, I want him back in. I dont want to stop caring, and there is no one better then him. This past week I have thought about it, I want back what me and him had, but better, I dont want to spend another one of our birthdays apart, I dont want to spend another sweetest day or Halloween without him. I want him here with me, for everything. I want us to be able to get passed any obsticle that comes our way, I want us to be together. I know I cant because his friends hate me. Thats kinda how it ended. I want him to look past that and be with me, no not throw his friends away because he needs them, like I need mine, but to stand up for me and say "I love you guys, but I love her to, I dont think its fair to me if you guys dont want me to be with her, you should want me to be happy". I cant keep putting on this happy face, I mean yeah Im happy dont get me wrong, being with my friends makes me happy, but in general all the time...Im not...how can I be when I dont have the one I love. I remember when I told him "ive lost everyone ive ever cared about, and I know your next" and he said "you wont ever loose me" now look at me, Im here without him, and I dont want to be anymore, I want my boo back!
xoxo
~sAnTiNa
I cant keep lying to myself. I keep telling myself "I love him but I want him out of me, I dont want to care about him anymore, I want someone bigger and better" but the truth is...I love him. I dont want him out, I want him back in. I dont want to stop caring, and there is no one better then him. This past week I have thought about it, I want back what me and him had, but better, I dont want to spend another one of our birthdays apart, I dont want to spend another sweetest day or Halloween without him. I want him here with me, for everything. I want us to be able to get passed any obsticle that comes our way, I want us to be together. I know I cant because his friends hate me. Thats kinda how it ended. I want him to look past that and be with me, no not throw his friends away because he needs them, like I need mine, but to stand up for me and say "I love you guys, but I love her to, I dont think its fair to me if you guys dont want me to be with her, you should want me to be happy". I cant keep putting on this happy face, I mean yeah Im happy dont get me wrong, being with my friends makes me happy, but in general all the time...Im not...how can I be when I dont have the one I love. I remember when I told him "ive lost everyone ive ever cared about, and I know your next" and he said "you wont ever loose me" now look at me, Im here without him, and I dont want to be anymore, I want my boo back!
xoxo
~sAnTiNa