Save tonight
You know there are so many instances in a day that i can only choose to pen down those that mean something to me. A while ago i was asked if i would like to join them at clarke quay and as much as i really wanted to, i know i couldn't. "You're so discipline", she started saying that it's still many hours till my paper but somehow... today, i just wanna stay in and be a lonely soul. He's there drinking because he couldn't pour his heart out to anyone in particular, drowning himself in a bottomless pit with alcohol. Don't we all do this.. Or maybe it's just me and him, we're too alike. I wish i can share part of his sorrows just to ease the pain but i know i couldn't even do anything. It makes me feel upset, no it's more than upset.. It's heart wrenching, and subconsciously, i know i am affected by it a lot.
I used to confide in some whom i still trust, but maybe as time rolls by, things change, and so do I. I no longer want to confide, i no longer want to speak how i feel directly, i choose to seek solace in elsewhere, and sometimes it makes me feel doubtful of all the friendships I've built on over the years. Good friends, aren't they merely just a name?
There is someone who is constantly on my mind, someone whom i really wish to talk to right now... Someone who always renders me with calls that i request, but i am afraid, i am afraid of how i feel tonight.
I used to confide in some whom i still trust, but maybe as time rolls by, things change, and so do I. I no longer want to confide, i no longer want to speak how i feel directly, i choose to seek solace in elsewhere, and sometimes it makes me feel doubtful of all the friendships I've built on over the years. Good friends, aren't they merely just a name?
There is someone who is constantly on my mind, someone whom i really wish to talk to right now... Someone who always renders me with calls that i request, but i am afraid, i am afraid of how i feel tonight.