After... Thoughts.
Adele: Chasing Pavements
Today i went to 10Men.
Since i've never been there and they have moved, i thought i should go check thing out and keep myself updated...
Honestly, i had a great time... In fact i had the time of my life... I topped, was topped, turned over sideways, paralaysed a guy with orgasm, made 2 guys VERY happy and even met up with this fucking hunky HK guy i had fun with a few years back and it was still Oh-So-Good!!! (I believe it was Prince who sang in Gett Off "23 positions in a 1 night stand".. I think i just discovered the 24th)!!!!
"Did you know so many guys were going after you???' One of the guy said to me after a session... I looked at him weirdly and said 'No lah... not possible' by which he just smiled and shrugged...
Friends who knows me would know that i dun have sex that often... But when i do, the floodgates kinda opens up...
The reason i dun really have tha much sex isn't becos i dun like sex... On the contrary, i think i'm somewhat of a sex addict, my left hand can tesify to that... So why dun i have sex with other people more often?
The only reason i can give is that i find one night stands quite empty... Yes, it's always fun to play with new meat and you might find new ways that excites you and buttons you didn't know existed... But at the end of it all, i can't help but feel this sense of emptiness inside me as you gaze the guy you just had sex with target on somone else and both of them fade into the darkened alley...
I remember many, many years back when i was still pretty much a HUGE WHORE, i decided to stop everything becos no matter how much sex you have, it cannot be compared to making love with someone whom you love and loves you back... It cannot be compared to the hugs, looks and laughs you have after an intense session of making whoppee... So from then on, i decided to kinda celibate...
So after many months of not getting it on, i decided to head down to 10Men and have my fill...
After the trip, as i exit the lift and head to People's Park Complex for dinner, the sense of emptiness struck me... You can have 10 orgasms but at the end of the day, if you go back to an empty bed, does it mean anything?
Of cos i'm not saying sex is more importan than love... Some people find sex more important and other find that love is more important... I think i just belong to the latter group... It doesn't mean i'm better... It just mean becos of it, there are certain things i believe in and hold true to my heart...
On my way back home... I thot about what the guy told me: "Did you know so many guys were going after you?"...
Am i only good as a playmate and not someone special?
Have i been waiting for love only to be destined for one night stands?
Honestly, i never had problem getting laid... But i do have problem getting hitched... Am i one of those guys that people only wanna have sex with and not a relationship?
Do i think i'm one of those latter groups only to have people think i'm more of the former?
As i waited for the traffic light to turn, i played my iPod and i think it true pathetic fallacy mode, out came Adele's Chasing Pavements...
As she sings "Should i give up, or should i just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere..." i can only ponder on the strange ways life plays out...
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Adele: Make You Feel My Love
TR: U look cute today
Me: I thot i look cute everyday?
TR: I like you when you dun do your drama
Me: It's part of the package...
TR: If you think so
Me: You can't pick and choose characteristics...
All our lives, we look for Mr. Perfect... After many years, we look for Mr. Right... The a few years passes and we begin to look for Mr. Right Now...
At this point in my life, i'm looking for Mr. Right...
I think for a long time now, i believe that there's no such thing as Mr. Perfect... There will always be things that drive people nuts or some nuances that turns you off... But looking at the big picture, no one is ever faultless... It's really about how we live with it and does it bother you more than what makes you love the person... And that is often the make or break situation...
I have been thru relationships where i believe the other party tolerated me for my silly antics and even while we know that we are constantly evolving, i truly believe that things often have to strike a balance: You find the cure for cancer, another disease will surface, so while something that irritates you get settled, there'll be another thing that'll bother you soon enuff... So no matter how 'perfect' someone seems to be or how willing they change for you, there'll always be something else that'll irk you, and vice versa... That's how mother nature strike a balance in life, to achieve harmony...
So i believe that to love someone is to really take them as they are... I loved R for his care and strength, i also loved him despite his sexual indiscretions and bossy attitudes... I loved B for his sweetness and his incredible patience, i also loved him despite the tough exterior and supported his final decision... I loved P for his wit and taste, i also loved him despite his mood swings and roving eye... So there's really no escaping liking something and disliking something else... Even i dun like some of my characteristics... So while i'm working thru some of them, i know i can only answer to myself if i have become the best that i can: Have i been a true friend, a good son, a willing brother, a doting uncle, a good citizen, a responsible employee and a loving partner...
We go thru life thinking we must please everyone only to find out we have pleased no one... So love me for who i am... Love me for my wit, my jokes, my care, my insights... But also love me for my drama, my overt sensitivity, my insecurities, my mind-fucking... Becos it is who i am... And unfortunately (or fortunately), it comes in a package...
Today i went to 10Men.
Since i've never been there and they have moved, i thought i should go check thing out and keep myself updated...
Honestly, i had a great time... In fact i had the time of my life... I topped, was topped, turned over sideways, paralaysed a guy with orgasm, made 2 guys VERY happy and even met up with this fucking hunky HK guy i had fun with a few years back and it was still Oh-So-Good!!! (I believe it was Prince who sang in Gett Off "23 positions in a 1 night stand".. I think i just discovered the 24th)!!!!
"Did you know so many guys were going after you???' One of the guy said to me after a session... I looked at him weirdly and said 'No lah... not possible' by which he just smiled and shrugged...
Friends who knows me would know that i dun have sex that often... But when i do, the floodgates kinda opens up...
The reason i dun really have tha much sex isn't becos i dun like sex... On the contrary, i think i'm somewhat of a sex addict, my left hand can tesify to that... So why dun i have sex with other people more often?
The only reason i can give is that i find one night stands quite empty... Yes, it's always fun to play with new meat and you might find new ways that excites you and buttons you didn't know existed... But at the end of it all, i can't help but feel this sense of emptiness inside me as you gaze the guy you just had sex with target on somone else and both of them fade into the darkened alley...
I remember many, many years back when i was still pretty much a HUGE WHORE, i decided to stop everything becos no matter how much sex you have, it cannot be compared to making love with someone whom you love and loves you back... It cannot be compared to the hugs, looks and laughs you have after an intense session of making whoppee... So from then on, i decided to kinda celibate...
So after many months of not getting it on, i decided to head down to 10Men and have my fill...
After the trip, as i exit the lift and head to People's Park Complex for dinner, the sense of emptiness struck me... You can have 10 orgasms but at the end of the day, if you go back to an empty bed, does it mean anything?
Of cos i'm not saying sex is more importan than love... Some people find sex more important and other find that love is more important... I think i just belong to the latter group... It doesn't mean i'm better... It just mean becos of it, there are certain things i believe in and hold true to my heart...
On my way back home... I thot about what the guy told me: "Did you know so many guys were going after you?"...
Am i only good as a playmate and not someone special?
Have i been waiting for love only to be destined for one night stands?
Honestly, i never had problem getting laid... But i do have problem getting hitched... Am i one of those guys that people only wanna have sex with and not a relationship?
Do i think i'm one of those latter groups only to have people think i'm more of the former?
As i waited for the traffic light to turn, i played my iPod and i think it true pathetic fallacy mode, out came Adele's Chasing Pavements...
As she sings "Should i give up, or should i just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere..." i can only ponder on the strange ways life plays out...
***************************************************************
Adele: Make You Feel My Love
TR: U look cute today
Me: I thot i look cute everyday?
TR: I like you when you dun do your drama
Me: It's part of the package...
TR: If you think so
Me: You can't pick and choose characteristics...
All our lives, we look for Mr. Perfect... After many years, we look for Mr. Right... The a few years passes and we begin to look for Mr. Right Now...
At this point in my life, i'm looking for Mr. Right...
I think for a long time now, i believe that there's no such thing as Mr. Perfect... There will always be things that drive people nuts or some nuances that turns you off... But looking at the big picture, no one is ever faultless... It's really about how we live with it and does it bother you more than what makes you love the person... And that is often the make or break situation...
I have been thru relationships where i believe the other party tolerated me for my silly antics and even while we know that we are constantly evolving, i truly believe that things often have to strike a balance: You find the cure for cancer, another disease will surface, so while something that irritates you get settled, there'll be another thing that'll bother you soon enuff... So no matter how 'perfect' someone seems to be or how willing they change for you, there'll always be something else that'll irk you, and vice versa... That's how mother nature strike a balance in life, to achieve harmony...
So i believe that to love someone is to really take them as they are... I loved R for his care and strength, i also loved him despite his sexual indiscretions and bossy attitudes... I loved B for his sweetness and his incredible patience, i also loved him despite the tough exterior and supported his final decision... I loved P for his wit and taste, i also loved him despite his mood swings and roving eye... So there's really no escaping liking something and disliking something else... Even i dun like some of my characteristics... So while i'm working thru some of them, i know i can only answer to myself if i have become the best that i can: Have i been a true friend, a good son, a willing brother, a doting uncle, a good citizen, a responsible employee and a loving partner...
We go thru life thinking we must please everyone only to find out we have pleased no one... So love me for who i am... Love me for my wit, my jokes, my care, my insights... But also love me for my drama, my overt sensitivity, my insecurities, my mind-fucking... Becos it is who i am... And unfortunately (or fortunately), it comes in a package...