dont look back.

[h4p1lyever4fter]

im trying not to have regrets, but its not easy loose that much time. its like im watching myself doing the horrible things i was doing but not being able to stop it. thats why the what ifs are just useless. theres no point in looking back, just have to decide what to do with my future.
jason said hes proud of what ive become. that meant allot to me. i know he would love me anyway but at least now i know all of his hard work wasnt for nothing. and it makes me feel good to know that a part of him is permanatly stuck in my personality. hes a good person to learn from. hell always be a part of me. it makes me feel so much less alone.
but why am i still so sad?

Sit Still
And close your eyes
What's behind the other door
Oh, no more silence
Don't kill this thing we got called love
Just searching for the perfect drug

When love comes calling
Don't look back
When love comes calling
Don't look away

And I'm standing over here
Watching you over there
Smiling, happy, unaware
Oh, life is spinning round
You're going underground
Forgetting who we were
Let's try and keep it
Just one more day

When love comes calling
Don't look back
When love comes calling
Don't look away

You take your love
And throw it all around
Like it's nothing special
Just a sound

Let me say one more thing
I don't think you realize
That a day is like a year sometimes