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wow.. i wish i had something to do.. i have things i can do but i dont feel like painting right now.. i like havig jason here with me.. i never have to be alone.. it reminds me that there will always be soemone there.. its useful in times liek these to know that at least soemone cares about me. it makes me far less suicidal. i hate loosing friends.. i keeps happening. youd think that maybe its just me an di cant keep friend because im doing something wrong but i rufuse to believe that being honest is wrong. im not even mean when im honest.. i just like to talk sometimes..
its just hard for me.. i cry sometimes when people flip me off. when people are mean to me and i love them it makes me wanna die. maybe im just too emotional.
but like i said.. having someone here who cares and that knows me better than anyone and still loves me .. so there.. i know im not manipulating him either.
its just hard for me.. i cry sometimes when people flip me off. when people are mean to me and i love them it makes me wanna die. maybe im just too emotional.
but like i said.. having someone here who cares and that knows me better than anyone and still loves me .. so there.. i know im not manipulating him either.