I know it...

[h3adoncollision]

You guys (the ones that actually pay attention) are probably getting annoyed with me always talking about David, and how stupid I was for breaking up with him and all that jazz...

but I can't fucking get this kid out of my head. When I see Courtney and Andy cuddling, I can't help but feel depressed because of the MANY MANY times that me and David did that.
I keep thinking about how we are probably never going to do that again, we are never going to sit by my car procrastinating my departure, never go to the movies and hold hands, never hold hands in general, never kiss again, never bite eachother again... the list goes on and on. He sometimes will act like nothing has happened... and then other times he makes me think that he never loved me at all. I want to move on, I really do. But I just can't. I miss that kid SOOOO much, it's fucking crazy. I find, I can't stop talking about him, anytime someone says something he did or likes something he does, I always mention his name. Why do I put myself through all this fucking torture?! I know I have always given people advice about no guy is worth your tears and the one who is won't make you cry, but I can't stop thinking about how much I friggin love David.

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But Gary is finally leaving.. I won't have to see him for a month an 1/2!!!