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Today I had a really bad day! I am the type of person who doesnt have bad days often, bc I normally push away all the bad stuff and focus on whats next or whatever. And I totally started off with a good day. I saw all my friends in the morn. I got some hot chocolate and the sun was out today. But KV was in a bad mood which sucked me into the blackhole as well.
I get teased from people a lot, which i tease them back so its normally ok. But today I blew up and i couldn't handle it. So i yelled at the person, which was lame. I really wanted to talk to someone to apologize for some stupid thing i did, but i could find em. And all my friends were somewhere else at lunch and i really had no one to talk to. And i really had a lot of things on my mind which i wanted to write in my journal but i didnt have time. Anyways you know what one of the coolest things about running is? That when you run you forget about all the shit that happened that day bc it doesnt apply to what is going on at the present time. So i up-ed my mood a lil and i got to talk to Ally which also helped.
On Sunday at church the sermon made me really think and i love thinking!! So that was cool. He said God intends you to use your mind body and heart. Your mind to achieve knowledge, your body to do things with like scuba dive or run, and your heart to love. That was way cool bc it totally relates to me and the goals in my life. Which are to always learn new and cool things and to experience all i can and to meet tons of people whom i can love.
The other day i remembered that i am going off to college next year which really made me sad. Mostly bc i used to be really close with my past alumni friends and then we lost touch. Like we fell off the edge of the earth. I really dont want that to happen bc i love a lot of people who i will miss very much. I learn so much from them and truly enjoy spending time with them. Its going to be really hard for me to leave go away from all these inspirational people whom i know and have really come to love and become attached to.
You know what i was thinking. People act differently around everyone. So does anyone really know the whole true me? Like some people i talk to only with a teasing tone and they do not know or understand the dreams and deepness within me. Its like the "You think you know but you have no idea" thing bc some people whom i see everyday know really nothing except what i choose to present to them. However a ton of other people may have something bigger inside them that i do not know either. Yes i guess i should get to know them more to understand, but i think the impression they give off to me tells me that i shouldnt we have nothing in common etc. KV tells me that once you truly get to know someone you love them. Bc you understand their imperfections. you understand what they went through and why they are the way they are. I totally agree bc all the people whom i truly know i love them but there are many that i do not totally understand and love them still, ok now i am confusing myself. Anyways.
ok i've been thinking about fate and destiny a lot lately, but i cant write about it now bc i havent thought about it enough yet to say anything about it. Have you seen the movie Serendipity?
But, do you believe in love at first sight? yes but i think it is very rare. Isnt it wierd that why you usually get to know someone is bc you are attracted to them. hmmm
The sky is beautiful tonight. I get so much energy and strengh staring at the stars or the moon especially.
I wrote a poem about the moon once and i am very proud of it bc it was my first attempt at writing a poem (and the last) bc i have to choose a topic to write about, it doesnt come to me like some people i know, which i am astonished at. But when i thought about what i love the most it was the moon.
Leaning on strong beams
Searching for floating hope in the night sky
It seems clear through glass panes
Tired from rowdy teenage adventures
Thirsting for steady ground
Alas, bright, round, and large it gives life to me
Swimming thoughts, loud troubles, and foggy dreams seem to run away
Filled with awe I stand still
Everything forgotten strong beams turn to feather pillows and the moon watches me
With white light nothing will happen
Calm, quiet, and still
We need security
knight (words like this are so weird and yet fun) everyone!!
Heath
I get teased from people a lot, which i tease them back so its normally ok. But today I blew up and i couldn't handle it. So i yelled at the person, which was lame. I really wanted to talk to someone to apologize for some stupid thing i did, but i could find em. And all my friends were somewhere else at lunch and i really had no one to talk to. And i really had a lot of things on my mind which i wanted to write in my journal but i didnt have time. Anyways you know what one of the coolest things about running is? That when you run you forget about all the shit that happened that day bc it doesnt apply to what is going on at the present time. So i up-ed my mood a lil and i got to talk to Ally which also helped.
On Sunday at church the sermon made me really think and i love thinking!! So that was cool. He said God intends you to use your mind body and heart. Your mind to achieve knowledge, your body to do things with like scuba dive or run, and your heart to love. That was way cool bc it totally relates to me and the goals in my life. Which are to always learn new and cool things and to experience all i can and to meet tons of people whom i can love.
The other day i remembered that i am going off to college next year which really made me sad. Mostly bc i used to be really close with my past alumni friends and then we lost touch. Like we fell off the edge of the earth. I really dont want that to happen bc i love a lot of people who i will miss very much. I learn so much from them and truly enjoy spending time with them. Its going to be really hard for me to leave go away from all these inspirational people whom i know and have really come to love and become attached to.
You know what i was thinking. People act differently around everyone. So does anyone really know the whole true me? Like some people i talk to only with a teasing tone and they do not know or understand the dreams and deepness within me. Its like the "You think you know but you have no idea" thing bc some people whom i see everyday know really nothing except what i choose to present to them. However a ton of other people may have something bigger inside them that i do not know either. Yes i guess i should get to know them more to understand, but i think the impression they give off to me tells me that i shouldnt we have nothing in common etc. KV tells me that once you truly get to know someone you love them. Bc you understand their imperfections. you understand what they went through and why they are the way they are. I totally agree bc all the people whom i truly know i love them but there are many that i do not totally understand and love them still, ok now i am confusing myself. Anyways.
ok i've been thinking about fate and destiny a lot lately, but i cant write about it now bc i havent thought about it enough yet to say anything about it. Have you seen the movie Serendipity?
But, do you believe in love at first sight? yes but i think it is very rare. Isnt it wierd that why you usually get to know someone is bc you are attracted to them. hmmm
The sky is beautiful tonight. I get so much energy and strengh staring at the stars or the moon especially.
I wrote a poem about the moon once and i am very proud of it bc it was my first attempt at writing a poem (and the last) bc i have to choose a topic to write about, it doesnt come to me like some people i know, which i am astonished at. But when i thought about what i love the most it was the moon.
Leaning on strong beams
Searching for floating hope in the night sky
It seems clear through glass panes
Tired from rowdy teenage adventures
Thirsting for steady ground
Alas, bright, round, and large it gives life to me
Swimming thoughts, loud troubles, and foggy dreams seem to run away
Filled with awe I stand still
Everything forgotten strong beams turn to feather pillows and the moon watches me
With white light nothing will happen
Calm, quiet, and still
We need security
knight (words like this are so weird and yet fun) everyone!!
Heath