kazoku to issho ni nihon ni ikimasu
do you have a end goal in life? a general concept of what you want out of life? mine is to be happy, in whatever way possible.
in life, i eventually want to have a family. i want the traditional life. that i am the wife of a working man while i am a housewife. that when my husband comes back from work i can say "how was your day dear?" or "why don't you go take a bath, i already filled the bath for you." or even "you look tired dear, was work tough? want me to rub your back?" and, of course "dinner's ready dear".
but i also don't want to be part of that cliche. i want to have a great career, have a bigger salary than my husband and live a selfsustained life.
i could not be happy with just one of these 2 on their own, but combining them is impossible. i want to be part of the cliche, but i don't want to be part of the cliche. why must my whole life be centred around contradictions.
sometimes i really wish my mum would say "when you were young you were promised to this person's son, you weren't supposed to know, since they disappeared for a while and we thought it was cancelled, but they're back now and the marriage is back on." or anything like that. but on the other hand i want to be able to make my own choices, mistakes and good decisions all together. maybe i should compromise with myself here and ask my mum to pick a boyfriend for me this time. who knows? but maybe he'll think i'm lame, because i'll then give the vibe that i cant do anything by myself and even need my mother to pick my boyfriend...
right.
i just want someone to take care of and love. and i want that someone to take care of me and love me back. and keep me interested and on my toes in every way possible.
i just try to be happy, because there isn't much else i can do.
in life, i eventually want to have a family. i want the traditional life. that i am the wife of a working man while i am a housewife. that when my husband comes back from work i can say "how was your day dear?" or "why don't you go take a bath, i already filled the bath for you." or even "you look tired dear, was work tough? want me to rub your back?" and, of course "dinner's ready dear".
but i also don't want to be part of that cliche. i want to have a great career, have a bigger salary than my husband and live a selfsustained life.
i could not be happy with just one of these 2 on their own, but combining them is impossible. i want to be part of the cliche, but i don't want to be part of the cliche. why must my whole life be centred around contradictions.
sometimes i really wish my mum would say "when you were young you were promised to this person's son, you weren't supposed to know, since they disappeared for a while and we thought it was cancelled, but they're back now and the marriage is back on." or anything like that. but on the other hand i want to be able to make my own choices, mistakes and good decisions all together. maybe i should compromise with myself here and ask my mum to pick a boyfriend for me this time. who knows? but maybe he'll think i'm lame, because i'll then give the vibe that i cant do anything by myself and even need my mother to pick my boyfriend...
right.
i just want someone to take care of and love. and i want that someone to take care of me and love me back. and keep me interested and on my toes in every way possible.
i just try to be happy, because there isn't much else i can do.