Whoa.. the things u realize when hit with reality
So, it's saturday and i jsut got back from viktoriya's house.. first sleep over there since TOOSday night (party@vikky's) anyways the events of last night have completely taken me and tightened me up inside.
Only to start at the beginning i will say how the three muskateers got picked up from vikky's by ed... lisa ofcourse in her... why-does-it-take-girls-so-long-to-decide-mood.... on the way to ed's place i close my eyes for an instant, not paying attention to the actions of the others in the car. the second my eyes close the car jolts and me being the paranoid loser i am realizes that ed did this on purpose for a stupid reason and freaks out on him... obviously he should kno not to do that shit with me in the car. so now i'm pissed at ed.. we go to dunns .(awesome room btw...: king bed, not too much on the walls, minimal lighting, dart board, big.. it works he should show it off more ;) maybe at a party cough) anyways ed is saying sry blah blah blah apparently i piss vikky off without realizing... bad idea...
we decide to go to sunset until things are more decided... here i find out that vikky is pissed at me and fall into complete and utter sadness i try to get ed to be in the group instead of with me but everyone is making me blow it out of perportion.. then we find out that gigi's brother had something happen to him like being jumped at FIU and is at baptist emergency
Everything stops. we decide to go there i'm mostly thinking about how vikky is pissed at me and what i should do b.c obviously i'm a bitch for what i did. When i get to Baptist i find out that not much is known but giancarlo is out of it and doesn't remember anything. After a few hours of screaming at different frat ppl the story is a bit more clear but it seems like frat business is dangerous. it's as if it's more of a gang thing than a frat thing but it isn't. Manny being the amazingly nice person he is says he will come at 1 and bring vikky and i back to vikkys house. As we drive out we see a girl, mariana we met earlier SPRINTING toward the car exit out of baptist... we are confused and speed up to where she is.. she gets in and says she heard a LOUD crash and ppl screaming and to just drive
immediately we find the crash... single car, trees taken out, sign taken out, car SMASHED, woman on the cement screaming prayers for her brother in the car bleeding massively. Us four were the ONLY ones helping! a policeman came to monitor but nothing was asked. my friends and i were trying to comfort the lady and to us, her faith was amzing! she was screaming prayers to God and already thanking him for us coming to her. I don't see how being right across the street from baptist can = a 10 minute wait for an ambulence but it did. The site was horrific.... the man stuck in the car was in bad shape and he was having tremendous trouble breathing. it was a site that put u in shock. Eventually we assured the woman that we would pray for her and we got going.
I have never in my life seen anything bad like this. I've never had someone close to me die. Never seen blood, or death or tragedy. i was in complete shock at the way that Mariana and Manny handled themselves... AMAZINGLY BRAVE Ppl.. it still gives me chills. Watching this scene play over in my head ... over and... over ... and over... the whole night ... over .. and over.. it makes ME want to be better. it makes me feel like i am soooo small, so insignificant that i am required by God to be a better person... for others, for myself, for my friends, for my enemies. for God, for everyone. Truly good is all it takes. help when help is needed, make happy and BE happy.
i think back and see how minor my anger with ed for a brief 30 minutes in history was. from this night on i will TRY my HARDEST to be the person that is genuinely good.
i kno u weren't there and it might just be a boring story to u, sry im not a better narrative writer, but i HOPE that u can get even an idea of the way i feel and care at this moment. that this story can have even remotely close to the impact it had on me.. until next time i'm off to do homework and think about how ed is in a different state :\ last time we were this far was when i was in boston and that was way be4 he kno how much i liked him.. luv to all mwa
Only to start at the beginning i will say how the three muskateers got picked up from vikky's by ed... lisa ofcourse in her... why-does-it-take-girls-so-long-to-decide-mood.... on the way to ed's place i close my eyes for an instant, not paying attention to the actions of the others in the car. the second my eyes close the car jolts and me being the paranoid loser i am realizes that ed did this on purpose for a stupid reason and freaks out on him... obviously he should kno not to do that shit with me in the car. so now i'm pissed at ed.. we go to dunns .(awesome room btw...: king bed, not too much on the walls, minimal lighting, dart board, big.. it works he should show it off more ;) maybe at a party cough) anyways ed is saying sry blah blah blah apparently i piss vikky off without realizing... bad idea...
we decide to go to sunset until things are more decided... here i find out that vikky is pissed at me and fall into complete and utter sadness i try to get ed to be in the group instead of with me but everyone is making me blow it out of perportion.. then we find out that gigi's brother had something happen to him like being jumped at FIU and is at baptist emergency
Everything stops. we decide to go there i'm mostly thinking about how vikky is pissed at me and what i should do b.c obviously i'm a bitch for what i did. When i get to Baptist i find out that not much is known but giancarlo is out of it and doesn't remember anything. After a few hours of screaming at different frat ppl the story is a bit more clear but it seems like frat business is dangerous. it's as if it's more of a gang thing than a frat thing but it isn't. Manny being the amazingly nice person he is says he will come at 1 and bring vikky and i back to vikkys house. As we drive out we see a girl, mariana we met earlier SPRINTING toward the car exit out of baptist... we are confused and speed up to where she is.. she gets in and says she heard a LOUD crash and ppl screaming and to just drive
immediately we find the crash... single car, trees taken out, sign taken out, car SMASHED, woman on the cement screaming prayers for her brother in the car bleeding massively. Us four were the ONLY ones helping! a policeman came to monitor but nothing was asked. my friends and i were trying to comfort the lady and to us, her faith was amzing! she was screaming prayers to God and already thanking him for us coming to her. I don't see how being right across the street from baptist can = a 10 minute wait for an ambulence but it did. The site was horrific.... the man stuck in the car was in bad shape and he was having tremendous trouble breathing. it was a site that put u in shock. Eventually we assured the woman that we would pray for her and we got going.
I have never in my life seen anything bad like this. I've never had someone close to me die. Never seen blood, or death or tragedy. i was in complete shock at the way that Mariana and Manny handled themselves... AMAZINGLY BRAVE Ppl.. it still gives me chills. Watching this scene play over in my head ... over and... over ... and over... the whole night ... over .. and over.. it makes ME want to be better. it makes me feel like i am soooo small, so insignificant that i am required by God to be a better person... for others, for myself, for my friends, for my enemies. for God, for everyone. Truly good is all it takes. help when help is needed, make happy and BE happy.
i think back and see how minor my anger with ed for a brief 30 minutes in history was. from this night on i will TRY my HARDEST to be the person that is genuinely good.
i kno u weren't there and it might just be a boring story to u, sry im not a better narrative writer, but i HOPE that u can get even an idea of the way i feel and care at this moment. that this story can have even remotely close to the impact it had on me.. until next time i'm off to do homework and think about how ed is in a different state :\ last time we were this far was when i was in boston and that was way be4 he kno how much i liked him.. luv to all mwa