life changes in the blink of an eye
wow... what a few weeks can do is insane... Last u heard i was at vikky's party and i made a fool out of myself.. that would be the truth but it was damn fun too. david and i were over in a few days... not so much the "perfect" relationship we'd imagined.... It works out tho.. we're friends and he's still hilarious, just not just not much of a love interest for me anymore. At the moment i'm with ed... he's part of the crew i started hanging out with back in Feb. He's so nice, so easy to talk to, so incredibly sweet to me and he's logical. Even if he had no idea what ppl around him were talking about or no idea what he was going to do later on in life he would only speak to seem like he knew what he was doing. its like that it's better to be thought of as a dumbass then to speak and remove all doubt. but yet he would never hold back b.c he knows that if there is nothing to lose u have to go for it... it's just one thing he taught me i used to holding back on anything i have the slightest doubt about and i'm starting to let go more and realize it's not all about everything being perfect.. i mean got over the fact that i'm a loser lol i can get over some other things too... even tho i've never said it he knows i'm falling hard for him and i can't wait to go on the roller coster ride with him as part of my life... school starts in less than two weeks and swimming in less than one i can't wait except for that whole i won't have time in my life for anything...it's gonna be the best. Junior yr, swimming, new friends and classes, b.f that wow... a b.f that leaves me speechless. The happiness that overtaes me at this moment b.c of everything going on in my life in unbelievable and its more than i ever could've imagined or asked God for... that's one thing i'm going to have to work on... God is not a part of ed's life at all and he doesn't kno what he's missing out on. it's awesome to have God there to fall back on WHENEVER i might need him and even when i don't need him. i dunno how but i'll have to sneak God into his life somehow. for now.. love out to everyone