who the fuck knows anymore
so i'm working to bring my grades up and i can't start waterpolo for another week :( ... only b.c my mom knos that teh second it starts thats all ima care about
friends = shit right now.. yea yea so u all love me and i love u too.... so that means about NOTHING at this point
i hate the way i'm acting about this... i seriously believe that i'll be okay... that we are ALL friends and it's a GROUP thing.. so why do i get so immensel sad when all i seem to hear is... "i have to talk to u later... its about tonight" or "we're going tonight, right?" or "this weekend for sure, right?"
one of my best friends = gone and another close one... gone with her... and i'm done hearing that u guys aren't "gone" b.c u are i kno how i get with my friends and it just sucks that
i have always tried so hard to not annoy u
to not do things wrong
to make u WANT to hang out with me.. but i can't anymore i don't kno what else to do i don't kno what to say and u don't kno what to say so i'm thinking that means that theres nothing left to say... oh wait except i love you.. which is like the only phrase i get from anyone... i get it! u are all "there" for me... thank you i appreciate it and the second that i can actually talk to someone about what goes on in my fukd up head i will kno i have ppl to go to. and now for homework... endless hw.
i swear if my grades drop during waterpolo ima scream and if waterpolo sucks this yr i'll freak out worse than i used to! i just wanna go back to being happy to everything being perfect i don't understand what to do to make that feeling come back!
friends = shit right now.. yea yea so u all love me and i love u too.... so that means about NOTHING at this point
i hate the way i'm acting about this... i seriously believe that i'll be okay... that we are ALL friends and it's a GROUP thing.. so why do i get so immensel sad when all i seem to hear is... "i have to talk to u later... its about tonight" or "we're going tonight, right?" or "this weekend for sure, right?"
one of my best friends = gone and another close one... gone with her... and i'm done hearing that u guys aren't "gone" b.c u are i kno how i get with my friends and it just sucks that
i have always tried so hard to not annoy u
to not do things wrong
to make u WANT to hang out with me.. but i can't anymore i don't kno what else to do i don't kno what to say and u don't kno what to say so i'm thinking that means that theres nothing left to say... oh wait except i love you.. which is like the only phrase i get from anyone... i get it! u are all "there" for me... thank you i appreciate it and the second that i can actually talk to someone about what goes on in my fukd up head i will kno i have ppl to go to. and now for homework... endless hw.
i swear if my grades drop during waterpolo ima scream and if waterpolo sucks this yr i'll freak out worse than i used to! i just wanna go back to being happy to everything being perfect i don't understand what to do to make that feeling come back!