here it goes
so there has been a lot goin on with me lately.. good and bad
i've been super busy with asb.. and its only gunna get more crazy the closer and closer we get to the end of the year. some of its good and i'm enjoying it, because i've felt like i've been doin nothing for the longest time in there. other parts of it i dont like.. like fighting with ppl. sometimes i think i'm way too opinionated for asb. also too stubborn lol because i dont give on on things when i think it should be done dif. i'm in a fight like that with somebody right now.. and its gunna be a tough fight buti think i have enough ppl on myside that it will turn out the best way.. my way.. and i'm not just saying that my way is the best way for everything.. but i %100 believe that for this situation the way me and other ppl think it should be done is the best way. and if the person who is doin it loses the fight and then doesn't want to put it on.. fine i'll do it i have no problem with that.. not ike he ever actually does his work anyways. ok enough with venting about that
swimming.. hmm swimming.. this season has probably been my worste season ever. i'm not swimming to well.. my times are really bad for me and my stroke is horrible. not to mention how f'ed up my shoulder is. it so doean't help. i'm doing what i can to make it stronger and to make the pain go away. but it doesn't last long and its back.. but i'm trying. but it'll really be a mracle if i make it thru the season.. i really hope i do. but my mom and i talked about it the other day and we think that it would probably be a wise decision to not play polo or swim in college. or at least not play polo and work all summer and all fall season to get my shoulder back so i can swim. which sux mucho. i looove polo so much more than swimming.. and i think i'm way better at it.. and i have.. well had a better chance in polo at the collegiate level than swimming. but if i keep goin my shoulder will only get worse and worse untill i need surgery.. because its almost to the point that thats the next step. but i'd rather quit before then to know that i quit on my own terms and to save my shoulder for the rest of my life rather than being forced to quit b/c i screwed up my shoulder beyond ne thang i already have. ya know. and who knows.. maybe after a year off and workin on things i'll be able to get back into it. we'll just have to see. it will be hard not swimmin and playing polo because they are my life and i do love those sports so much. but the break might be good for me. and i'll get to focus on my school work and my life and go to the gym and work out on my own and still swim at my own pace for my shoulder. so yea.. there's been that. which has kinda been bouncin around in my brain b/c its like.. when this season's over i'm done.. and its kinda scary/ sad.
then there's the fact that i pretty much hate school. i'm so bored all day long and i really feel like i have no reason for being there. asb and sports med. thats all i go for. i dread school. blah
for the the longest time i haven't really liked anybody. but i really wish i had a guy. not even really a boyfriend.. i mean it'd be really nice and i want that.. i just dont see it happenin. i just wish i had someone you know.. dunno cn't explain it and thats ok. i've actually started talkin to somebody recently.. which is kinda random on who.. but its cool. i dunno if i'm starting to like him or what. but whatever happens happens and i'm fine with wherever this goes. i'm not gunna stress
lately i have been haing fun with my good friends.. even thru the busy-ness of last week and this last weekend. last wed was 8th grade parent night.. and it was pretty fun b/c i got to hang out and talk to kali a lot. and i miss that. we dont get very much time to talk these days and i miss her mucho so that was cool. thursday .. rally rehersal.. way stressfull.. went long again, always does tho. friday rally.. went well i was proud of everybody in asb our rallys get better and better everytime and its awesome. the dance.. went way better than expected i was way impressed and very proud of zac for puttin on such a great even. the dj kinda sucked but its ok.. i had a blast. probably the most fun i've had at a dance in a long long time. the weekend.. 24 hr relay.. long tiring boring and made me very sore.. i'm still limping. our team kinda got on eachothers nerves at times and out chaperones were horrible. but kyle was there and i got to hang out with him quite a bit and that was way cool.. i miss him mucho that kid is great! i can't believe he peirced his lip tho! ah well nothin i can do.. it'll grow on me too. but umm i'm happy that franklin and evann and christie were on my team.. i love them soooooo much and i wouldn't have made it outta there alive withut them.. franklin and i went to coffee afterwards.. like 2 hrs before caitlin started workong.. sad but the coffee was good and sitting on the couch felt wonderfull. my leg still hurts so bad tho i can barely walk sometimes.. its sad haha
lets see what else.. oh omg how could i forget... MY BIRTHDAY.. NEST THURSDAY!! yup yup the 21!! yay i'm excited
well i think i had more to write but this was a shit load and i'm kinda tired. also i just remembered that i have to wrap heather's b-day pres for tomorrow
well i'll ttyl
luv ya all
♥
lacy
i've been super busy with asb.. and its only gunna get more crazy the closer and closer we get to the end of the year. some of its good and i'm enjoying it, because i've felt like i've been doin nothing for the longest time in there. other parts of it i dont like.. like fighting with ppl. sometimes i think i'm way too opinionated for asb. also too stubborn lol because i dont give on on things when i think it should be done dif. i'm in a fight like that with somebody right now.. and its gunna be a tough fight buti think i have enough ppl on myside that it will turn out the best way.. my way.. and i'm not just saying that my way is the best way for everything.. but i %100 believe that for this situation the way me and other ppl think it should be done is the best way. and if the person who is doin it loses the fight and then doesn't want to put it on.. fine i'll do it i have no problem with that.. not ike he ever actually does his work anyways. ok enough with venting about that
swimming.. hmm swimming.. this season has probably been my worste season ever. i'm not swimming to well.. my times are really bad for me and my stroke is horrible. not to mention how f'ed up my shoulder is. it so doean't help. i'm doing what i can to make it stronger and to make the pain go away. but it doesn't last long and its back.. but i'm trying. but it'll really be a mracle if i make it thru the season.. i really hope i do. but my mom and i talked about it the other day and we think that it would probably be a wise decision to not play polo or swim in college. or at least not play polo and work all summer and all fall season to get my shoulder back so i can swim. which sux mucho. i looove polo so much more than swimming.. and i think i'm way better at it.. and i have.. well had a better chance in polo at the collegiate level than swimming. but if i keep goin my shoulder will only get worse and worse untill i need surgery.. because its almost to the point that thats the next step. but i'd rather quit before then to know that i quit on my own terms and to save my shoulder for the rest of my life rather than being forced to quit b/c i screwed up my shoulder beyond ne thang i already have. ya know. and who knows.. maybe after a year off and workin on things i'll be able to get back into it. we'll just have to see. it will be hard not swimmin and playing polo because they are my life and i do love those sports so much. but the break might be good for me. and i'll get to focus on my school work and my life and go to the gym and work out on my own and still swim at my own pace for my shoulder. so yea.. there's been that. which has kinda been bouncin around in my brain b/c its like.. when this season's over i'm done.. and its kinda scary/ sad.
then there's the fact that i pretty much hate school. i'm so bored all day long and i really feel like i have no reason for being there. asb and sports med. thats all i go for. i dread school. blah
for the the longest time i haven't really liked anybody. but i really wish i had a guy. not even really a boyfriend.. i mean it'd be really nice and i want that.. i just dont see it happenin. i just wish i had someone you know.. dunno cn't explain it and thats ok. i've actually started talkin to somebody recently.. which is kinda random on who.. but its cool. i dunno if i'm starting to like him or what. but whatever happens happens and i'm fine with wherever this goes. i'm not gunna stress
lately i have been haing fun with my good friends.. even thru the busy-ness of last week and this last weekend. last wed was 8th grade parent night.. and it was pretty fun b/c i got to hang out and talk to kali a lot. and i miss that. we dont get very much time to talk these days and i miss her mucho so that was cool. thursday .. rally rehersal.. way stressfull.. went long again, always does tho. friday rally.. went well i was proud of everybody in asb our rallys get better and better everytime and its awesome. the dance.. went way better than expected i was way impressed and very proud of zac for puttin on such a great even. the dj kinda sucked but its ok.. i had a blast. probably the most fun i've had at a dance in a long long time. the weekend.. 24 hr relay.. long tiring boring and made me very sore.. i'm still limping. our team kinda got on eachothers nerves at times and out chaperones were horrible. but kyle was there and i got to hang out with him quite a bit and that was way cool.. i miss him mucho that kid is great! i can't believe he peirced his lip tho! ah well nothin i can do.. it'll grow on me too. but umm i'm happy that franklin and evann and christie were on my team.. i love them soooooo much and i wouldn't have made it outta there alive withut them.. franklin and i went to coffee afterwards.. like 2 hrs before caitlin started workong.. sad but the coffee was good and sitting on the couch felt wonderfull. my leg still hurts so bad tho i can barely walk sometimes.. its sad haha
lets see what else.. oh omg how could i forget... MY BIRTHDAY.. NEST THURSDAY!! yup yup the 21!! yay i'm excited
well i think i had more to write but this was a shit load and i'm kinda tired. also i just remembered that i have to wrap heather's b-day pres for tomorrow
well i'll ttyl
luv ya all
♥
lacy